A CHRONOLOGY OF EVENTS LEADING TO THIS MOMENT

Looking back at the many Nadi readings I had in the past I am overwhelmed to see Agathiyar's concern and interest in seeing us attain their state. I guess the only reason I know is that I was willing to listen. Instead of living for myself, I carried out their will. Hence I guess they paid me reasonably well. Yogi Ramsuratkumar said, "All the rituals and religious practices prescribed in the Vedas should make one reach the feet of the Guru if these rituals and religious practices are done with all sincerity. Once you attain the feet of the Guru, then you need not worry about your spiritual growth. You need not do any rituals also. It is enough to listen to your Guru and remember your Guru. Your Guru will take care of you and he will take you to the destination."  True to what Yogi Ramsuratkumar said the guru unleased the hidden dormant power that is much spoken about without my least effort. When there is so much glamour and publicity associated and given to the awakening of the kundalini in books, videos, and the net, often bringing on fear in us, I did not know nor realized this awakening until I was told in a Nadi reading on 13.10.2007. Though I began to read the Nadi in 2002 this was the very first mention of Kundalini. உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்வதைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா. 

When did this happen, how did this happen, I have no idea. I did not pursue my search nor speak about it to another not even my guru. Tavayogi was not one to entertain talk on Kundalini. The reason I am dwelling on it now is that Agathiyar recently wanted me to stop writing about his praise and share my inner experiences.

After picking up Yoga from Tavayogi officially, Patanjali came on 18.5.2008 to guide me further in the Nadi reading. The many practices taught and shown and put into practice shall bring on excessive heat within he said. Hence there was the need to take sattvic food that cools the body. This is the second instance the Kundalini is mentioned. He says that the colors of the aura will accentuate further as a result of the awakening. ஒப்பிலா உடல் சூடும் தியானத்தால் உனக்குச் சோர்வு வந்திடும் இக்கணம் தன்னில். தான் நீயும் குளிர்ச்சி தரும் பண்டம் தவறாது ஏற்றிட வேண்டும் அப்பா. நிலைத்துத் தான் அங்கத் திடம் ஓங்கச் சிறப்பாக வாரம் ஓர் நாள் மட்டும் செயற்கை உணவு மட்டும் ஏற்கா. மட்டிலா செய், கரி, குரு நாள் தன்னில் மகத்தான மருத்துவத்தின் உணவும் ஏற்பாய் கட்டளைதான் உப்பு, புலி, காரம், இனிப்பும் கண்டிப்பாய் ஆகாது ஏற்க வேண்டாம். பதஞ்சலியின் யோக சூட்சம இதுதான் மைந்தா. வளமிருக்கும் வர்ணமும், ஆதாரமும் சித்தி கொண்டதோர் குண்டலினி ஓங்கும் பாரு. 

But I never saw any difference in myself. Neither did others around me.

30.9.2008 Agathiyar comes to guide us further asking that we observe the breath telling us that Lord Vinayagar and Gautama Buddha excelled in this art. They remind us that they are sharing what they themselves had practiced and achieved. Again he surprises me by saying that the light from the third eye had emerged. நேர்மையான தவத்தாலே நெற்றிக் கண் ஒளியும், ஒளி அதுவும் உனக்குமே வெளிப்பட்டது இப்போ. கண்ணியமாய் வாசிதனை வசப்படுத்திக் கணக்காகப் புசிக்கச் சிறப்பு தானே. சிறப்புயெலாம் வாசியிலே அடங்கி இருக்கு. சித்தர் எல்லாம் வாசி வழி தேர்ச்சி கண்டார். சிறப்புமிக்க மூத்தோனும் புத்தனும் தான் சிறப்பான வாசிக்கே அதிபதி ஆவார். ஆனதொரு வாசி தன்னை அடக்கினாலே ஆயுளோடு மரணம் இல்லா பெரு வாழ்வு உண்டு. தவசியெல்லாம் வாசியாலே தவமும் பெற்றார். தான் அடைந்த உண்மையெல்லாம் உனக்கு உரைத்தோம். 

I did not notice anything nor any difference in me though.

8.12.2008 Agathiyar speaks about the importance of Pranayama further. Taking on the breath we shall see the veil of ignorance drawn aside to reveal the Jothi he said. Agathiyar throws in another surprise saying that due to my Vaasi practice or Pranayama, the Suzhimunai at the top of the head had opened. He assures me that he shall draw all the seven veils aside and have me see the Jothi. He said that he shall pave the way to reach the state of fulfillment and completeness that comes with the state of Soruba. வாசி பயிற்சியாலே சுழி திறந்து உச்சியும் திறக்கக் கண்டாய். ஏழுதிரை தன்னை நீக்கி வழுவாது சோதிதனை கான வைப்போம். வையகத்தில் பூர்த்தி நிலை அடையச் செய்வோம். சொரூப நிலை யாவும் பெற வழியும் செய்வோம். 

No, I did not sense anything on the top of my head.

27.8.2009 He gives further practice known as Tava Sukmam where he surprised me by telling me to focus on yet another couple of chakras that are not spoken of which he points out as residing at the top and bottom of the nose. Agathiyar mentions again that the Siddhas did all these. வெற்றி நிலை மிகுந்து காணத் தவ சூச்சமம் தான் விவரிப்பேன். இரு மண்டலம் செய்வாய் நன்றாய். நெறி உடனே தினம் காலை மாலையும் தான் நாசியின் மேல் கீழ் சக்கரம் நோக்கி நோக்கியே தவம் பயிற்சி சில நாழிகை மட்டும் நாசியினுள் நீண்டவாறு வாசியை இழுத்து விட்டுப் பக்குவமாய் பயிற்சியும் செய்து  வரப் பலப்படும் ஞான நிலை பலவாறாக. பலவாறு தெளிவு திடம் சிந்தை கீர்த்தி பிரபஞ்சம் வசிய நிலை திண்ணம். உலகினிலே நாங்கள் செய்த பயிற்சிதான் உவந்து சொன்னோம் உனக்குமே சூச்சம். 

26.12.2009 Agathiyar speaks about the third eye and Gnanam has having opened in me. He says that Tavayogi shall grant us the rest of the treasure. ஞானத்தின் திறவுகோல் திறந்த பிள்ளை. உச்சியும்  திறந்த பிள்ளை. முக்கண்ணும் பிரகாசிக்கும். தர வேண்டும் போக்கிடங்கள் என்று நினைத்தோம். தவறாது யோகி வழி உனக்குக் கிட்டும். 

I could not comprehend and associate with what he was implying. 

2.1.2010 He says by just mentioning his name one shall gain the merits and grace he had gained. நாமத்தை நாள் நாளும் சொல்லி வந்தால் நான் அடைந்த புண்ணியங்கள் கிட்டிவிடும். சேமமான என்னைப் போல் அருளும் கிட்டி. 

31.1.2010 He tells me he shall pass on his Nool someday to be worshipped. I shall come to read it. It is both a present and gift from me. உரைத்த என் கரத்தாலே எழுதிய வாக்கை ஓர் நாளில் உன்னிடத்தில் ஒப்படைப்பேன் நானும். என் மடியில் நீ வைத்து வணங்கி வர என் நூலை நீ படிக்க விதி ஓர் நாள் உண்டு. உந்தனுக்கு எந்தனின் பரிசும் அதுவும் அன்பளிப்பும் ஆகும். 

3.4.2010 He asks to continue my yoga practice. சாதகனே என் யோக பயற்சிதன்னை சாற்ற நீ தினம் காலை மாலையும் தான் சரிசிறப்பாய் செய்து வர யோகம் அப்பா. பயிற்சிகளும் தனக்கு இத்திசையில் கிட்டி நலம் அடைவாய். 

12.7.2010 He says I saw Sadashiva. Agathiyar asks that I spread his fame. தரணியிலே சதா சிவதை கண்டவன் நீ. அகத்தியானின் புகழ் தன்னை பரப்புவாயே. 

I did not know what that was too. Though the Siddhas spoke about the mystical changes that came by within me, I guess since I was not receptive enough, I was unaware of these changes in me. Life went on as usual for me. Also, I guess since I had a job and a family they did not want to disrupt my life in any manner. Hence when some are able to describe in detail the drastic and cinematic changes within them, I had nothing to say or share. 

The changes became obvious only much later as I pursued on the road. Practicing the Yoga asanas and Pranayama techniques as shown by Tavayogi in 2007, Agathiyar in the Nadi reading on 9.8.2010 says the heat of my tapas was at its height. He says he has gifted me the tools to carry on with his work. உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் அப்பா இது. இந்தக் காலம் தனக்குள்ளே பல ஆற்றல் தந்துவிட்டேன் தரணியிலே என் பணியை நீ பார்ப்பதனால். உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் இது இந்தக் காலம்.

Now I began to take notice of changes that were obviously taking place. Weeks later seeing my agony of having pulled a nerve that gave me excruciating pain in my lower back right till the right toes, Agathiyar on 17.10.2010 gives me the good news and consoles me on the bad too. What is generally achieved through Hathayoga is now possible through Tapas and Puja he said. But he points out to my health that was declining. He asked to see a physician who can bring it back to its former state. With his grace, I shall recover well he added. 

அடையோகம் தன்னில் கிட்டும் சித்தி அவையனைத்தும் தவமொடு வழிபாட்டில் பெறுவாய். ஆனதொரு ஆரோக்கியம் மட்டும் சோடை. ஒளடதமும் பிடகனை அறிந்து ஏற்க்கவே மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்றம் கிட்டும். என் அருளால் பூரணமாய் பரிசுத்தம் காண்பாய். 

On 16.1.2011 Agathiyar who continued to monitor my situation assured me that all shall be fine. He asked me to continue taking the prescription for another half a mandalam. வாகடன்கள் தேகத்திற்கு மட்டும் வளத்துடனே அரை மண்டலாம் எடுத்துக் கொள்ள தேகமத்தில் குறை வாரா. 

9.8.2011  He acknowledges the blissful state I am in. The graceful light has increased in its immensity he says. By taking the Siddha path, one touches Siddhantam he says. ஆனந்த நிலை இப்போ அடைந்திருக்கிறாய். அருள் ஜோதி நிலை பெருகி உள்ளத்தப்பா. விளம்பலாம் சித்தாந்தம் மார்க்கம் தொட்டு சுத்தமுடன் சித்தர் வழி சமயம்பற்றி வின்னமில்லா நிலை பலதும் அடைந்துவிட்டாய். 

I was referred to the Orthopedic Specialist at the general hospital who put me on physiotherapy. In the நடைமுறை பிரசன்ன ஆசி நூல் read on 26.11. 2011 Agathiyar addressed the issue clearly. Agathiyar spelled out the reasons and the solution in the form of several Siddha herbs and prayers. He classifies my agony as Paareesa Peedai or உடலின் ஒரு பக்கம் that was external and "superficial, existing or occurring at or on the surface and  appearing to be true or real only until examined more closely." He says the Muladhara chakra had attained intense heat resulting in my condition leading to immobility. The three dosas too have gone haywire. He asked to consume Amalaki and Triphala. He asked that I stop all forms of tapas and yoga practices for the time being. He asked that I pray to the Sun God and Lord Murugan to bring relief. தரணிதன்னில் எங்கள் வழி மார்க்கத்தில் தப்பாது பூசையும் தவமும் செய்து தான் உயர்வு அடைந்திட்ட பாலகன் உனக்குத் தரணியே உயிர் பிணி ஏது சொல்வோம் உடல் பிணி ஏதுதான் அச்சம்கொள்ள. பாரிச பீடைகளும் வந்து நிற்கும். உற்றதொரு மூலாதார சக்கரமும் உயர் விதமாய் உட்டனங்கள் அடைந்ததனாலே உரைக்க வரும் சோர்வும் தேகம் தன்னில். உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து. சிறப்பு தரும் வாகடமும் செப்பலாம். செப்பலாம் தவம் தன்னை நிறுத்திவைக்க.  சிறப்பு இருக்கு வழிபாடும் முறையே மாறாது சூரிய வழிபாடும் செய்ய வழிபாடும் வேலவர்க்கும் முறையே செய்யப் பங்கம் ஏதும் வந்திடாது கலக்கம் கொள்ளா. 

16.1. 2012 He says that I should increase the moments sitting in puja by doing it in the mornings, noon and evenings too. He said that he shall test us in many ways.  தான் உத்தமமாய் வழிபாடும் நாழி ஒன்று துயில் தன்னில் உதிக்கும் காலம் செய்வாய். மேலும் தினம் சூழ் வேளையிலும் பூசை தன்னை தீர்க்கமாய் செய்திடுவாய். சித்தரின் பூசைதனை செய்து வருவாய். முக்காலமும் உணரும் சக்தி பெற்றிடுவாய். மண்ணுலகில் பல வகையில் சோதிப்போம். வையகத்தில் வாக்கு மாறா வழிபாடு செய்து ஆண் நீயும் பெருநிலை அடைந்துவிட்டாய். 

On 15.2.2012 surprisingly the physiotherapist asked me to do the exercises that she had taught me and that I had put into practice over the past seven months before her. As I moved into position to begin to raise my right leg behind me and stretch my back, there was something like a latch released, a dam burst, a knot that was untied or loosened, as if something gave way, and it brought instantaneous relief and joy to the extent I shouted out and cried in joy. The excruciating pain left magically and mysteriously just as it had come on upon me. All was well as Agathiyar had said. 

15. 2. 2013 He asks me why I need to rely on his Nadi when he is with us. He asks to stop the search. He shall provide for us. உன்னோடு நான் இருக்க உனக்கேன் வாக்கு. ஓதாது உணரும் சக்தி பெற்றுவிட்டாய். உச்சி திறந்த மைந்தன் நீ அறிவாய் இன்றோ. சுழி திறந்து முக்தி கண்டாய். தேடிய நாடிய காலமெல்லாம் போதும். தேடி வந்து அருள் செய்வோம் இனித்தான் உனக்கு. 

Tavayogi used to ask us the same too. 

21.9.2014 He ask that I write about the Siddha Marga. He shall induce me to write he says. He speaks about the chakras. தக்கதொரு எழுதிடுவாய் சித்த மார்க்கம் பற்றி. எழுத வைப்போம் சிந்தையிலே கலந்து நாங்கள். ஆதாரம் முறையாய் விளங்கி நிற்கும். முனை திறந்து இருக்கிறாய் இப்போ. 

28.3. 2015 He thanks me for bringing others into the path through my writings. He says my home that was his Vanam has transited into Gnanakottam. நீ உலகில் என் ஜோதியைப் பெற்று விட்டாய். உண்மையான மார்க்கத்தை உலகிற்கு ஓதி உயர் நிலையைப் பலர் அடைய வைத்தவன். இல்லமதும் ஞான கோட்டமாகி இறை ஞான நிலை அடைவார் வருவோர் எல்லாம். அருள் புரிந்தோம் ஞான கோட்டம் தன்னில்.  அருள் தவம் ஆசி பெற வழிவகுத்தோம். திறந்தோமே உட்சியும் உனக்கும் மைந்தா. 

28.8. 2015 He says my writings have reached many. He sees the changes that have taken place within me.  கருணையுடன் கருத்துகளை உலகிற்குப் பரப்பிக் கருணையான நிலை தன்னை பலர் அடையச் செய்தாய். தேகத்தில் மாற்றங்கள் பெற்று இருக்காய். அகத்துக்குள் அகத்தின் ஜோதி பெருகி தேகத்தில் பல மாற்றம் பல சக்தி கிட்டி முனை திரண்டு இருப்பாயே. 

The transition from the Nadi to directly speaking through others now began. These visitations were interspersed with Nadi readings. We had regular visitations from the deities and Siddhas through a devotee who comes often to AVM. Ma and Aiya were regulars then. 

In 2016 we were surprised by the arrival of Dhanvanthri to treat my back pain that had reappeared. A couple who had just returned from Dhanvanthri's temple in India dropped in at my home in a timely manner bringing over his sacred prasad. Dhanvanthri used this sacred ash to rub it into my back and massaged me. He told me to heat up some sesame oil and apply it and sleep on level ground for the next few days. The pain eventually subsided and one fine day I realized it was gone. 

18.11. 2017 Agathiyar in the Nadi says I was instrumental in some way towards the change others went through. He wants me to stay low and out of sight. அருள் நிலைகள் பெற்றிருக்கின்றார் பல மாந்தரும். மாற்றங்கள் பலர் அடையக் காரணமாய் இருந்தாய். குவலயத்தில் ஒன்றுமே தெரியாதவன் போல் அமர்ந்திருப்பாய். 

30.1. 2018 Lord Murugan comes in the Nadi and acknowledges that my ego died. He asks that I build a temple for him stating that though there are many in this nation he is shown "differently". I shall show him otherwise. நான் என்ற அகம்பாவம் அழியக் கண்டேன். இன்னும் ஒரு வாக்கைச் சொல்கின்றேன். எனக்கு நீ ஆலயத்தை அமைக்க வேண்டும். நிற்கவே இம்மண்ணில் எந்தனுக்கு ஆலயமும் அமைத்து உள்ளார். என்னை வேறு விதமாய் காட்டித்தான் வைத்துள்ளார். என்னை நீ காட்டுகின்ற காட்சி வேறு. 

This puzzled me as I had no notion of what he was talking about. How could I show him differently I asked myself?

7.10.2018 Agathiyar in the Nadi says that my breath is a mess. The most compassionate father acknowledging that I cannot possibly withstand even the slightest pain chose to provide his medicines and ointments to bring on quick relief. உனக்குத்தான் நித்திரை தவ வாசி காலம் வாசியும் சீர் பிசகி முடங்கித் தான் இருக்கு. சோர்ந்திடாது நீ திடங்கள் பெறுவதற்கு தீர்க்கமுடன் எங்களின் வாகடங்கள் சொல்வோம். சிறு வலியும் பொறுக்காத தேகம் அப்பா பிள்ளை உனக்கு வலி வருத்தம் இல்லாது சாத்மீக வாகடன்கள் சொன்னோம்.

8.10.2018 Lord Murugan in the Nadi praises me for keeping a low profile yet spreading the wisdom of Agathiyar. He tells me my body is crumbling. Though age has caught up with me he resides as the Atma in us. My spine and hips are currently tense. The gel at the joints has hardened. This is the reason for the acute pain I was having. With some treatment done earlier, a quarter of the issue was overcome. He tells me why I had to go through the suffering. It was to have me sit in one place and do tapas. But both he nor Agathiyar did not abandon me. They have come to my aid through a Nadi reading and through a devotee. On a different note, he says that Agathiyar Vanam can take on a new name Agathiyar Tapovanam. இந்தத் தேசத்தில் சத்தமின்றி அகத்தியரைப் பலருக்கு நீ காட்டினாய் அப்பா. உன் தொண்டை மெச்சுகின்றேன். நின் தேகம் தளருகிறது அப்பா. தேகத்திற்கு முதுமை அது வந்துவிட்டாலும் தெளிந்த ஒரு ஆத்மவுள் இருப்பது யானே. இந்தக் காலம் உன்னுடைய முதுகு எலும்பும் இடுப்பும் தானே ஒரு வித இறுக்கமாய் இருக்குதப்பா. அப்பா அங்கே இருக்கின்ற தைலம் தானே தைலமது உலர்ந்து  போச்சு. இதுதான் உண்மை ஆதலால் சேரும் எலும்பு சந்திப்பெல்லாம் அறிவித்தால் ஒருவித இறுக்கம் அச்சு. ஆச்சப்பா மின்னல் போன்ற வலி தோன்றும். அங்கே அப்போது துடி துடித்து நிற்பான் மைந்தன். மைந்தனுக்கு மருத்துவம் சில செய்ததாலே மாற்றங்கள் கால் பங்கு குணமாகக் கண்டேன். சாற்றநல்  இது எதற்கென்று கேள். அகத்தில் நீ அமர்ந்து தவம் தியானம் செய்ய. தெளிவிக்க அகத்தியரும் புறப்பட்டு விட்டார். திறம்படவே நீ நடமாட வேண்டும் அப்பா. தீர்க்கமாய் அதற்குத் தான் நூல் உரைக்க வந்தேன். ஆறுமுகன் சொல்லுகின்றேன் ஷண்முகத்திற்குக் கூறுகின்றேன் உன்னால் எழுந்து நடமாட முடியும். குமரனும் இன்று இரவே அற்புதம் செய்வேன். மெள்ள அகத்தியர் வனம் அகத்தியர் தபோவனம் ஆகும். தவம் செய்யும் வனம் அப்பா தபோவனம் ஆகும். 

9.10.2018 The next day Lord Murugan comes in a Nadi reading for another devotee and explains how he healed me the night before. செய்தித்தேன் மருத்துவம் யான் கூட நேற்று. மெய்யாக அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். ஜீவ நூலாய் ஜீவனாய் இறங்கி பங்காக அவன் உடலைச் சார்ந்திருந்தது அவனுக்குச் சிகிச்சை செய்தோம். ஆறுமுகன் பேசினேன் இறங்கினேன் ஒரு கணத்தில். நன்றாய் மயில் இராகு கொண்டு சண்முகத்தின் தேகத்தை தடவிய அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். மைந்தனவன் தியான வழி சிந்தைகொள்ள அவன் தனக்கு சக்தி பெருகும். 

3.1. 2019 They seem to want me to either build a temple or move to a larger venue as they anticipate a larger crowd that my humble home could not possibly accomodate. எனக்குச் செய்யும் பூசை கண்டு மயங்கித் தவத்தொரும் சித்தர் எல்லாம் தடம் நாடி வந்தோம். தடம் அதனில் அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் நிகழும். நாடி மாந்தர் பெரும் கூட்டம் கட்டுக்கடங்கா. நாள் அதன் பின் தனி கோட்டம் அமைப்போம். நன்றாம் மண்ணுலகில் உன் கோட்டம் பிரபலியம் ஆகும். 

After his revelation in the Nadi on 3.1. 2019, our relationship now became pretty close and personal with the divine. Lord Murugan spoke to us on 23.7.2019. Agathiyar came through a devotee on 15.9.2019. Ramalinga Adigal came on 29.11.2019 and later on 1.12. 2019. 

5.9. 2019 Agathiyar tells me he lives in my as the Jeeva within. As the 3 dosas were cleared, the Suzhimunai is open, and the top too is open. The Kundalini fire has risen and I was partaking the Amirtham or honey. The awakening of the Kundalini is akin to the snake waking up causing us to stir and move in this way. But this is bliss he says. He asked me to remain calm and not to make a fuss about it. They shall speak to us, he adds giving upadesa. "What you say shall be our thoughts. We will work through you for the betterment of others." This is the third instance they spoke about the Kundalini. உன்னுள் ஜீவமாய் இருக்கின்றோம். மும்மலங்கள் அற்றதொரு தேகம் என்பதனால் முனை திறந்து உட்சியும் திறந்து குண்டலினி உயர்ந்து கனல் எழும்பி அமிர்தத்தை இடைவிடாது உண்டு கொண்டு இருக்காய். குண்டலினி சக்தியெல்ல்லாம் எழுப்புவதெல்லாம் குவலயத்தின் பாம்பின் போன்று நெளிய நேரும். ஆனால் ஆனந்தம் ஆனந்தம் அதுதான் என்போம். நீ உள்ளே அமைதியுடன் இருந்து தான் ஆர்ப்பாட்டம் இல்லாது இருப்பாய். மூப்பான நிலை வந்ததால் முனை திரண்டு பேசி நிற்போம் நாங்களும் தான். உன்னுள்ளே நாங்கள் இருந்தவாறு உபதேசம் அளிப்போம். பலவாறாக நீ உரைக்கும் வார்த்தையெல்லாம் எங்கள் சிந்தை அப்பா. உன்னுள் இருந்து நாங்கள் மாந்தர்க்கு நலம் ஞானம் வழங்குவோம். 

I remember falling down after coming out of the loo. My body began to twist and turn beyond my control just as the snake lashes its body back and forth. This is what exactly Agathiyar had told me. But though I was wrinkling in pain it was blissful too at the same time. I was conscious and laughing away, while spread out on the parquet floor.

Ramalinga Adigal came on 29.11.2019 and hugged us all inviting us to invite the light within. "Arutperunjothi has taken possession of you. Open up your Atma. Open up your heart to receive him. The Jothi shall come within and embed in you. We are slaves to this Jothi. I am a slave too." அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ... வாரும் ஐயா …  அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப ... மற்றவர்களும் வாரும் ... உங்களையும் ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப … உங்கள் ஆத்மவை திறந்து வையுங்கள் ... உங்கள் இதயத்தைத் திறந்து வையுங்கள்... ஜோதியினை உன்னுள் பதிந்தது. ஜோதியினை நீ இணைந்து விடு.  ஜோதியினை பிரகாசிக்கச்செய். ஆழ்ந்து போ. அனைவரும் ஜோதிக்கு அடிமை. அடியேனும் அடிமை. 

This was the very first time we got to know what a Pranava and Oli Degam would be like for the devotee in whom he came was lifted off the floor and we had to hold him back.

24.12.2019 Agathiyar in this final Nadi reading for me reveals what Gnanam is. The art of transforming the Asudha Degam into a Sudha Degam and later into the Pranava Degam and finally into the Oli Degam is indeed Gnanam. Gnanam then is in knowing this art and making the transformation happen. அசுத்த தேகம் சுத்த தேகமாகி பிரணவ தேகமாகி ஒளி தேகமாகும் வித்தையே ஞானம். அதற்குத் தியானத்தில் வாசியைக் கவனி. உடல் குறு தத்துவங்களை அறிய வேண்டும். 

Visitations and revelations through devotees came on 30.1. 2020, 8.2.2020, 21.2.2020, 8.3.2020, and 14.3.2020 before Malaysia saw a full lockdown on 18 March 2020. The messages from Goddess Ma, Lord Siva, Bhogar, Dhanvantri, Yogi Ramsuratkumar, Tavayogi, kept coming in throughout this period, 14.5.2020, 29.6.2020, 4.7.2020, 5.7.2020, 9.7.2020, 10.7.2020, 20.7.2020, 1.8.2020, 13.8.2020, 19.8.2020, 22.8.2020, 1.9.2020, 29.10.2020, 19.11.2020, 30.11.2020, 10.12.2020, 12.12.2020, 14.12.2020, 8.1.2021, 9.1.2021, 26.2.2021, 8.3.2021, 11.3.2021, 16.3.2021, 28.3.2021, 3.4.2021, 17.4.2021, 26.4.2021, 6.5.2021, 15.5.2021, and 22.5.2021. I soon lost count of the moments they came and delivered their messages. 

On 30.1. 2020 Agathiyar gives further instructions to be followed. These practices shall take you further he said after he, through the Nadi, and Tavayogi guided me over the years. He told me that I shall come to know what is right and what went wrong. Both shall be lessons I learn. Whatever is initiated immediately and promptly shall bring on success. He says, "All this while you saw to your needs in this world. Now you shall undertake an internal journey. I shall relate what needs to be done to realize your purpose in coming here." He said I had stagnated. He continued, "You cannot possibly break the shackle alone. Hence follow the practices that I am to give you." நீ செய்தவையில் எது சரி தவறு என்று நீ கண்டறிவாய். அனைத்தும் உனக்குப் பாடம். குறித்த காலத்தில் நீ செய்த அனைத்தும் உமக்கு நன்மை தந்தது. இது நாள்வரை நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உள்பயணம். அதாவது நீ பிறந்ததின் நோக்கம் அறிவதற்கு நீ செய்யக்கூடிய வழிமுறைகள் யாம் கூற இருக்கிறோம். இதன் மூலம் உமது பிறவி பலனை அதன் நோக்கம் நீ அறிவாய். நீ உலக வாழ்க்கையில் நீர்தேங்கிறாய். இவ்கடிவாளத்தால் உம்மால் மீண்டு வர இயலாது. ஆகையால் யாம் சொல்லும் வழிமுறைகளைச் செய்து வா.

He said further, "Reduce your involvement in outside activities. Sit before me and meditate. During this moment carry out the cleansing breath as taught by your guru. Just the important ones. You shall sense a coolness within. Remain silent in these moments. Focus on your breath. Your breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl. Travel along your 7 chakras. That journey shall awaken your chakras. After travesing these chakras when it touches the seventh you shall know your purpose here. This is the right time to start this practice." வெளி உலக பயணம் சற்று குறைத்துக் கொள். தினமும் காலையில் குளித்து வெறும் வேஷ்டி அணிந்து என் முன் அமர்ந்து தியானம் செய்து வா. தியான முறையின் பொது உமது குரு கூறிய சுவாச சுத்திகரிப்பு பயிற்சியினை செய்து வா. அனைத்தும் வேண்டாம். மூல பயிற்சி மட்டும் போதும். அதை நீ செய்து வர உனக்குள் ஒரு தனி குளிர்ச்சி ஏற்படும். அந்நிலையில் நீ அமைதி கோல். உனது மூச்சில் கவனம் கோல். உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும். உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய். இத்தருணம் மான் மூச்சு குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்பொழுதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்து விடும். 

Agathiyar continued on the changes to be expected, "You shall witness many changes taking place within you. Do not fear. Due to the activation of the chakras your body shall emit foul smell. You shall have constipation. You shall urinate often. Take lots of warm water.  The Agathiyar Kuzhambu you took did help in expelling the 3 dosas. But there still is. It shall be expelled in due time. Carry out the said practice." உடலில் பல மாற்றங்கள் கண்டறிவாய். பயம் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். இச்சக்கரங்கள் புணர்ச்சியால் உன் உடலில் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள், துர்நாற்றம் வீசும், மல சிக்கல் ஏற்படும், கழிவு ஆகும், சிறுநீர் அதிகம் வெளியேறும். வெந்நீர் அதிகம் அருந்து. அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாத, பித்த, கபம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும். இப்பயிற்சியினை மேற்கோள்.

Agathiyar enlightens us further. "When one starts the journey in going within, the result is Gnanam. But it shall vary among people. Hence I cannot say exactly what shall take place. All this while you have gained external knowledge or Ulaga Gnana. Now you shall gain Gnana that is going to serve you." ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது. நீ இதுவரையில் கண்ட ஞானம் உலக வாழ்க்கை ஞானம். இனி காணப்போவது உனக்கான ஞானம். 

He spoke about his devotees who frequent AVM. "Get those who keep coming over to AVM to sit in meditation. When their external thoughts leave them Gnanam shall dawn on them and they shall take up the path of Gnanam." தவறாமல் வருபவர்கள் கூற வேண்டும் என்றால் அவர்களை அமைதி காத்து தியானம் மேற்கொள்ளச் சொல். அவர்களின் எண்ணம் எப்போ அவர்களை விட்டு விலகுகிறது அப்போ அவர்கள் ஞானம் கைகூடி அவர்கள் ஞான பாதையில் அடி வைப்பார்கள்.

He answered my yearning to pull the shutters down. "You need not go into solitude now. You need to share many things with others. I shall tell you when is the right time to do so. Start this practice first. It shall lead you one further." இன்றைய கணம் நீ தனிமை படுத்திக்க வேண்டாம். நீ பகிர்வது இன்னும் சிலருக்கு தேவை படுகிறது. நான் சொல்லும் நேரம் நீ அதனைத் தொடங்கலாம். இப்பயிற்சியினை முதலில் மேற்கோள். அவை உன்னை வழிநடத்தும். 

He went on to ask me to prepare a concoction and reminded me that it was not to be shared with others. இவ்கமண்டலம் போல் ...... அந்நீர் உமக்கு மட்டுமே. யாரிடமும் பகிர வேண்டாம்.

"Sleep here in the prayer room from now on." உமது  படுகையினை இனி இவ்வறையில் வைத்துக்கொள். நீ படுக்கும் திசையில் உமது சிரசு என் நிலையை நோக்க உன்பாதம் அவ்வினை நோக்க வேண்டும். நீண்டிருக்க உமது வசதிக்கு ஏற்ப படுத்துக்கொள். 

I was overjoyed to hear that Vallal (Ramalinga Adigal) shall aid me too with my practice. "When you realize yourself completely and realize that everything around you is impermanent you shall stand apart from it all. That is to be motionless in all manner or Summa Eruppathu. To arrive at that state increase your Soul Power or gain Atma Balam." உமது பயிற்சியில் வள்ளலும் உமக்கு வழிநடுத்துவான். உன்னை நீ முழுதும் அறிந்து உன்னைச் சுற்றி இருக்கும் கணங்கள் அறிந்து எதுவும் நிலை அற்றது என்று நீ அறியும் அத்தருணம் வெளிக்குள் நீயே வெளி கடப்பாய். அத்தருணமே சும்மா இருப்பது. அது கிடைக்க உமது ஆத்ம பலத்தை நீ கூட்டிக்கொல். 

Agathiyar then throws in a word of caution. "Let go of your anger otherwise you shall not attain Gnanam because your anger in touching the chakras will weaken them. When in anger the blood shall intercept and change the motion of these chakras. When its motion changes the strength of your breath will diminish. Whatever your troubles, leave it to me.  Just carry out the breathing practices. Nothing else is necesary. When you reach the said state an energy or sakti shall enter you. That is Sulimunai." ஒன்று கவனம். இப்பயிற்சி உனது சினம் இறங்க வேண்டும். சினம் இருந்தால் உமக்கு ஞானம் கிட்டாது. ஏன் என்றால் உன் சினம் சிரசை தொட அச்சக்கரங்கள் பலம் இழந்து போகும். நீ சினம் கொள்ளும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன் உடம்பில் இருக்கும் உதிரங்கள் அதன் சுழற்ச்சியினை மாற்றும். அச்சுழல்சியின் மாற்றங்கள் உமது சிரசின் மூச்சு காற்றின் சக்தி குறைந்து விடும். எதுவாகினும் எம்மிடம் விட்டு விடு. மூச்சு பயிற்சியின் மட்டும் மேற்கோள், மற்ற பயிற்சிகள் ஏதும் வேண்டாம். எனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும். அதுவே சுழிமுனை.

Just as Agathiyar said Ramalinga Adigal came on 14.5.2020 and guided me further. He asks me, "Have you understood the purpose of asking to go within? Do your experience change within your body? This is only the start. You shall lay the stepping stones and progress at your pace. An effort is needed." I understand now that there are no stones laid out there for us to step on or rungs of the ladder to climb. We lay the stone and place the rung. If we had set our foot on the stepping stones laid out before us by someone else, a pioneer or explorer or master traveling the way before, now we pick up and lay the stones anew and step on it and lay another stone and step further or lay the rungs of the ladder according to our efforts and progress. "What you are doing currently is wonderful. Continue with it. Watching your breath is right. You are changing its flow correctly. Continue with it. You are on the first step. Prana moving in you is itself Pranava Degam. When you sense the Pranavam you shall question yourself if the Pranam is traveling in you or vice versa, if you are hitching on it and traveling in it. When you reach that state you shall have the answer. That moment shall be one of extreme bliss. Go deep within this bliss. There is more. Whenever you say it is enough you shall tend to gain more. There is much to learn. You have my blessings. I shall travel with you till you reach the destination. I accompany those who go deep within. Follow your breath. Place the effort and you shall reach the destination." உன் உள் பயணத்தை அறிந்து கொண்டாயா? தேக மாற்றம் உணருகிறாயா? இதுவே துவக்கம். உனது முயற்சியே உனது படி. தற்போது நீ செய்து வரும் சிறப்பு. அதைத் தொடர்ந்து செய்து வா. சுவாசத்தை கவனித்துக் கொண்டிருப்பது சரியே. அதை நீ மாற்றிக் கொண்டு வருகிறாய். தொடர்ந்து செய்து வா. முதல் படியில் இருக்கிறாய். பிராண சக்தி ஊடுருவிச் செல்கிறதே அதுவே பிரணவ தேகம்.  பிரணவத்தின் சக்தி உணரும் தருணம் உன் பிரணவத்தால் ஊடுகிறாயா? அல்லது பிரணவம் உன்னுள் ஊடுகிறதா என்று தோன்றும். என்று அப்படியில் காலடி வைகிறாயோ அன்று உமக்கு விடை பிறக்கும். பிரணவத்தின் நீயே அதைக் காண்பாய். அது பேர் ஆனந்தம்.  இன்பத்தில் ஆழ்ந்து கொண்டு வா. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. போதும் என்ற மனமே பொன் செய்யும் மருந்து. நீ போதும் என்று சொல்லும் நிலை உன்னை அறியாமல் நீ பெற்றுக் கொண்டுதான் இருக்கிறாய். நீ கற்பதற்கு இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. எனது பரிபூரண ஆசியோடு கற்பிப்பாய். உன்னுள் ஜோதி எரியும் வரை நான் உன்னோடு வருவேன். ஆழ்ந்து இருப்போருடன் நான் சேர்ந்து இருக்கிறேன். உமது பிரணவத்தை கொண்டு செல். ஜோதியோடு கலப்பாய்.

"Supramania Swami was the guru who led you to the path of worship to guru. He taught you guru bakti or devotion to the guru. You received the merits from his tapas. Tavayogi too in his light form, is trying to bring salvation to you. He is traveling with you. You traveled in his way and followed his teachings. You spread his fame and helped him attain the state of Jothi. He who is currently with you shall continue to travel with you." சுப்ரமணியன் உனக்கு வழிநடுத்திய குரு. குருவைத் தொடர்ந்திருக்கும் ஒரு சீடன் அக்குருவை எவ்வாறு நடத்த வேண்டும் என்று கல்வியை சுப்ரமணியன் உனக்குப் போதித்தான். அவன் தவ வலிமையை நீ பெற்றாய். தவயோகி ஆத்ம ஜோதியாய் உங்களை கரை தேர்த இன்னமும் முயற்சிக்கிறான். உங்களோடே பயணிக்கிறான். அவன் வழி நடந்து முழுமையாக கடைபிடித்து வரும் ஒரு சீடன் நீ. அவன் புகழை பரப்பிய உன் தவ வலிமையால் அவன் ஜோதி நிலை தொட்டு விட்டான். தற்பொழுது அவன் உங்களை வழி நடுத்த உங்கள் அருகில்தான் இருக்கிறான். இன்னும் இன்றும் உங்களோடு பயணிக்கிறான்.

"The noise around your neighborhood although obstacles but that is Gnanam. Be patient. Through your effort you shall conquer your senses. Till then these shall trouble you." அக்கம் பக்கம் சத்தம் அவைகளே உமக்கு இன்னல்கள். அவைகளே உமக்கு ஞானம். பொறுத்துக்கொள். உமது முயற்சியால் உமது ஐம் புலன்களை அடக்கிடுவாய். அது நடக்கும் வண்ணம் இவைகள் உமக்குத் தொந்திராவு வழங்கும்.

29.6.2020 Ramalinga Adigal surprised me by saying that "The lock to the hidden door between your eyebrows is open now." I had no idea what it was all about. உன் கண் புருவ பூட்டு திறந்து விட்டது.

As Tavayogi says one's effort shall only bring him to his second chakra and the divine has to come to bring us further, my effort in doing worship, rituals, dharma, and Yoga, brought me to stagnate at the second chakra. Only after 10 years in July of 2020 did Agathiyar break the news that the energy from the Muladhara chakra which was activated back then in 2010, and that had ponded at Svadishthana was to be released to enable it to make its way up further. "Currently, your Muladhara and Svadhisthana are open. The breath is currently lodged in Svadhisthana. The time of its opening is near. Now is the right time to start your practice. This would open up the chakra completely. You will see many changes take place in your body. Don't be afraid. In activating these chakras your body shall smell foul, you shall have constipation, and you shall urinate often. The Agathiyar Kuzhambu you consumed earlier (on 27 June 2022) helped stabilize your Vata, Kapha, and Pitta. Yet these Dosas need to be expelled further." இத்தருணம் உமக்கு மூலாதாரம் திறந்தது, ஸ்வாதிஸ்டானம் திறந்தது. இப்பொது மான் மூச்சி குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்போதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்த நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்துவிடும். உடலில் பல மாற்றங்கள் கண்டறிவாய். பயம் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். இச்சக்கரங்களில் புணர்ச்சியால் உன் உடலில் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள் துர் நாற்றம் வீசும், மலச்சிக்கல் ஏற்ப்பட்டு கழிவு ஆகும், சிறுநீர் அதிகம் வெளியேறும். அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாதம், கபம், பித்தம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும். 

Your journey till this day was external and was for worldly existence. Now you shall tread a journey that takes you within. You will come to understand the reason you were born. When your breath touches the Suzhimunai (சுழுமுனை) and travels, engaging with the chakras, upon reaching the seventh chakra, you shall get the answer. At that moment a Sakti will come within. That is சுழுமுனை or Suzhimunai. When everything is clear that is Gnanam. இதுநாள் வரையில் நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உல் பயணம். ஆதாவது நீ பிறந்ததன் நோக்கம் அறிவாய். உமது மூச்சி உனது சுழுமுனை தொட்டு உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய்யும் கால் ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய். உனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது அக்கணம் உன்னை அறியாமல் உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு  சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும் - அதுவே சுழிமுனை. நீங்கள் உள் பயணிக்கும்போது எல்லாம் தெளிவாகத் தெரியும் சமயம் திரை விலகியத்திற்கு அர்த்தம். அதுதான் ஞானம். 

22.8.2020 Ramalinga Adigal tells me "Use your breath to fan the Jothi. It shall travel through Sushumna and touch Ajna. Then the Jothi is seen. Carry out Nadi Sudhi to raise the Prana. It needs to travel in both nostrils. You shall then rests in completeness or Sudha Paripuranam. Dhyana will be yours then. You are one with the Prana. Pay attention to it. The changes in you is but discharges. It shall leave your body. Do not worry. What you are doing is tavam. Agathiyan has accepted and received it. Hence bath his statue once a week and please him. We shall continue working on your insides and from within." பிரணவத்தை கொண்டு ஜோதியை சுடர் விடச்செய். சுஷும்னா வழி சென்று ஆக்கினை தொடும். பின்னர் ஜோதி தெரியும். நாடி சுத்தி செய்து பிரணவத்தை உயர்த்தவும். இப்போது இரு நாசியில் செல்ல வில்லை. இரு நாசியில் செல்லும் கால் பிரணவம் இடகலை பிங்கலையில் சீராகச் செல்லும் தருணம் சுத்த பரிபூரணத்தில் நீ ஆழ்ந்து இருப்பாய். தியானம் என்பது உனது பரிபூரணம் ஆகும். உனது பிராணவத்தில் கலந்திருக்கிறாய். பிரணவத்தில் கவனம் செலுத்து. உன்னுள் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள் யாவும் கழிவுகள். அகன்று போகும். கவலை வேண்டாம். நீ செய்தது யாவும் தவம். முயற்சி யாவும் அகத்தியன் பெற்று விட்டான். ஆகையால் வாரம் ஒரு முறை நீர் ஊற்றி ஆனந்தம் படுத்திவிடு. உள்ளிருந்து யாவும் நடத்துவோம்.

19.11.2020 Agathiyar in telling the others said that "He shall share his experiences." இவன் அனுபவத்தைப் பகிர்ந்து கொள்வான். 

12.12.2020 Agathiyar tells the others gathered, "Read his writings. They are my thoughts. In the coming days I shall speak a lot about the Atma." இவன் எழுதுக்களை படியுங்கள். அவை என் கருத்து. இனி ஆத்மாவைப் பற்றி நிறைய சொல்வேன்.

Weeks ago Agathiyar came and gave me more good news though its repercussions are affecting my body. "The water that ponded over time has been discharged. Having the chakras activated in this age has its consequences towards the body. As the heat of the tapas increases the quantity of blood is affected that shall lead to cramps which shall then result in problems in the discharge of urine and faeces. Take the neccesary medicines. Do not worry." தேங்கி இருந்த நீர் வெளி கொண்டது. ஆனபோதும் முதிர்ந்த நிலையில் சக்கரங்கள் திறப்பதனால் உதிர வாட்டம் கொண்டுள்ளது. ஆகையால் எண்கள் மேரு பெறும். முதிர்ச்சியில் சக்கரங்கள் திறக்கும் போது அவ்வுடல் சில பாதிப்பினை ஏற்றுக்கொள்ளும். உனது உடலில் உஷ்ணம் ஏற ஏற உதிரம் குறையும். உதிரம் குறைந்தால் உடல் மரத்துப் போகும். உடல் மரத்துப் போனால் சிறுநீர் கோளாறு கழிவில் கோளாறு ஏற்படும். மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதைச் சீர் படுத்திக் கொள்ள நன்மையே தரும். கவலை வேண்டாம். 

Agathiyar gives me strength and courage. He says, "Do not be afraid of death. It is but another door to another journey. One who invites death is a Siddha. There is much I need to carry out through you. Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Experience first and I shall clarify the experiences later. Experience is knowledge to you. Nothing is beyond experience." மரணபயம் வேண்டாம்.  மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு.  எவன் ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான். உன்னில் இருந்து நான் காரியங்கள் செய்வதற்கு இன்னும் நிறைய இருக்கிறது. எனது பெருமை போதும். இனி உன் எழுத்துக்கள் உடல் மாற்றங்கள் உடல் அனுபவம் பற்றியதாக இருக்கட்டும். ஜோதியினை வழிபட்டால் அதில் இணைய வேண்டும் என்றால் உடலில் எவ்வித மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்படும் என்று உன் வாசகர்களுக்குத் தெரிய படுத்து. உனது அனுபவம் எனது அறிவு. அனுபவமே உனக்கு அறிவு. அனுபவத்தைத் தாண்டி ஒன்றுமே இல்லை. நீ அனுபவம் கொண்டுவா, பின்னர் உரைக்கிறேன். 

Agathiyar gives me confidence saying, "If going within is difficult think of it as a practice for you. Going within will bring you to merge with the Prapanjam. There is no easy way. What you go through is very much easier and milder that what I went through." உள் பயணம் சிரமமாக இருக்குமானால் அதுவே உமக்கு பயிற்சி. ஆழ்ந்து போவது நீங்கள் பிரபஞ்சத்தோடு இணைவதற்கு. இதற்கு சுலபமான வழி இல்லை. நான் கண்டதை விட நீங்கள் கண்டு வருவது மிகவும் சுலபமானது.

Agathiyar ends the note by telling me that there is no easier way to attain or merge with the breath, the sensation, the vibration, the magnetism, the Prapanjam, and the Jothi. With a little effort from us, the Siddhas shall aid us further. Then the energies will do the rest. The breath is akin to the river that turns the turbine machine in our case the chakras to produce electricity and energy. We have basically become a dynamo. The swirling sensation felt several weeks ago in the abdomen just below my navel is now regularly felt in the top of my head with a lesser intensity. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. The body is now a magnet that is attracting the effulgence from beyond. We understand that while we see lightning appear in the skies and strike things on the ground, there is a small amount of electricity that reaches out to it from the earth. The small amount of electricity meets the larger expanse that is God. A clear nostril is a highway for these energies to hitch on the breath and make their way swiftly to the depo at the top of the head. 

Over a couple of days, it seems more like a flowering of petals and is blissful. Agathiyar previously reminded me not to allow anyone to touch my head. Soon the pandemic came and I never visited the barber till this day. As our journey is one, my wife cuts my hair. Recently when Dhanvantri came I fell before him. He reminded me not to fall at anyone's feet. 

Last Sunday as we were celebrating Navarathri at the home of a senior couple, Ramalinga Adigal came and brought down heaven and its energies and passed it on to all gathered through a devotee. I felt my body rise and float as others held on to me. A child devotee told the host that she saw a blue halo instead of me. It was a couple of days before the energy in us subsided. 

Reaching this point of the journey itself was a great blessing for me who was never ambitious both materially and spiritually. How did the grace fall on me? Was it because I had listened to them? 

ARE WE THERE YET?

Figuring out what had taken place and the events that brought it on, as I look back at the journey it is pretty obvious that the divine energies have come into play in my life to catapult me in my inner journey just as they had a hand in my outer journey too. Guiding me in the Nadi regularly until the pandemic when the Nadi readers were not accessible to us, they came through devotees to continue monitoring us. This brought on a personal touch with them as they placed their palms on our heads and chests, stroked our backs, applied the sacred ash on our forehead, and placed some in our mouths. We held hands as we sat around in a circle placing the oil lamp in the center. They brought down the energies into the space we sat in and into our bodies. I guess unknowing to us they were giving us Shaktipat through these means.

Swami Muktananda in his "Kundalini - The Secret of Life", a Siddha Yoga Publication, published by the SYDA foundation, 1994, describes shaktipat from the guru, as "when the guru directly transmits his own divine shakti to the disciple." 

"The easiest and best method (of awakening, activating, and setting into operation the kundalini) is through shaktipat from the guru, when the guru directly transmits his own divine shakti to the disciple. It is the secret initiation of the greatest sages and has been passed on from guru to disciple from the beginning of time."

"After you receive shaktipat meditation starts spontaneously and at that time prana and apana the ongoing and outgoing breath become balanced and long kumbhaka retention of breath begins to take place effortlessly. The prana becomes extremely subtle and moves into the Sushumna and then the Sushumna opens up and begins to unfold. When kundalini awakening takes place through grace it will rise of its own accord and become established where it should be established. Kundalini will take care of herself... when the kundalini is awakened by the grace of the guru the grace itself will guide it in the correct manner. There is absolutely no danger in such a case."

"After the awakening of kundalini, meditation comes spontaneously. There is no need to center the mind because the kundalini herself grabs hold of the mind and centers it in whatever place she considers suitable." 

Indeed I felt the pull of this energy that was so obvious felt on the top of my head and that drew my attention to it and brought my breath, now flowing freely to caress the spot. I could do nothing else at this moment initially. Slowly it went on as I went on with my limited daily activities. 

"It is only after the body has been purified that the shakti can work with full force. The basis of all disease and pain is the impurities that block the flow of prana in the nadis. These blockages are caused by imbalances and disorders in the three bodily humors - wind, bile, and phlegm."

Now I realize how Agathiyar had worked hard on preparing my body for the eventually Shakti to be transmitted. He had me take his Agathiyar Kuzhambu and prepare another of his herbal cleansing formula to consume. 

"She (kundalini) penetrates all 720 million nadis consumes all the old decaying fluids, then releases vital energy into them all. The nadis become filled with prana."

The excretions from all the openings in my body were smelly during this process as told by Agathiyar too. I thought my body was decaying from within. My stools were in different consistencies, shapes, and colors. Now that I know the reason for it, that old decaying fluids were being expelled, I am at peace. 

"When the nadis are cleansed the mind is purified. The mind is intimately connected to the prana. To control the mind yogis try to control their breath. The prana and Apana become even and eventually, the breath begins to be retained within. This is called kumbhaka. In true kumbhaka the prana and Apana become one at that point. Prana does not go out nor does Apana come in. When the prana stops the mind becomes still and you experience supreme tranquility. Great beings are in this state of inner stillness."

Agathiyar eventually led us on to retain our breath recently, after many years of Pranayama.

"If one has awakened the kundalini through self-effort it is very difficult to lead it upward because right from the moment the kundalini is awakened until the moment it finally merges in the Sahasrara the seeker has to depend on yogic practices."

We are glad that Agathiyar was on hand and had a hand in awakening this super force in us without having to go through much pain and trouble. As he told me he had made it so simple that he could not simplify the process further, reminding me how he had to go through it the tough way, so did Tavayogi quip that I had come to the path quite easily compared with the rough journey he had. I am indeed blessed. I am deeply grateful to them. 

THAT SACRED SPACE

We need to create a space in our homes to usher and delight in the company of the Gods and Goddesses. We need to set aside an area, if space permits a separate room would be ideal, for our nithya or daily puja. With the continuous conduct of puja soon we begin to create a space in us to allow the Guru and God to occupy. This becomes the cave or kugai in our hearts where Lord Murugan or Kugan comes to reside. He shall then bring on Gnanam from within us.

Poet and saint Nakirar in his "Vinayagar Thiruagaval" seeks the grace of Lord Ganapathy asking to create the avenue and a special moment to be with the Guru, a moment of sitting in silence with the Guru, merging in thought with him, asking that even the thought of the guru as being separate be dropped, and become identified with the Guru, to be one with the Guru. Nakkirar's prayer became my prayer too since that day. It has become the prayer of many who frequented AVM too. Now their children sing the song too.

மோனா ஞான முழுதும் அளித்து
சிற்பரிப் பூரண சிவத்தைக் காண
நற்சிவ நிட்கள நாட்டமுந் தந்து
குருவுஞ் சீடனுங் கூடிக் கலந்து
இருவரும் ஒரு தனியிடந் தனிற் சேர்ந்து
தானந்தமாகித் தற்பர வெளியில்
ஆனந்த போத அறிவைக் கலந்து
ஈசனிைணயடியிருத்தி
மனத்தே நீயே நானாய்
நானே நீயாய்க்
காயா புரியைக் கனவெனவுணா்ந்து
எல்லாமுன் செயலென்ேற உணர
நல்லா உன்னருள் நாட்டந் தருவாய்
காரண குருவே கற்பகத் களிேற
வாரணமுகத்து வள்ளலே போற்றி

Seeing our eagerness to reach him, soon the divine creates a space at the top of the head where the effulgence or Arutperunjothi comes down and meets the Kundalini Sakti that once started creation in us and settled down in a deep slumber within the folds of the flower petals in the Muladhara. When we surrender to the will of God he drives the force in us for this merger to take place. The Sakti awakens with the help of the guru now and makes its way to meet its spouse in this sacred reunion in this sacred space. When Sakti meets Shiva the dance of joy reverberates in this space. This is the dance of Shiva Sakti. The first step then is to let God into our homes and later within. 

Swami Kripananda author of the "Sacred Power (Kundalini)", and "The Guru's Sandals" in writing the introduction for Swami Muktananda's "Kundalini - The Secret of Life", a Siddha Yoga Publication, published by the SYDA foundation, writes,

"This knowledge (of the kundalini) was so well hidden, in fact, that when Swami Muktananda received kundalini awakening from his own master Bhagawan Nityananda and began experiencing its effects he had no idea what was happening to him. He wrote his first great work the spiritual autobiography "Play of Consciousness" to prevent his own students from running into the same confusion and to help them understand the process unfolding within them.

As Swami Kripananda says, indeed the experience catapults us into a new world. After Ramalinga Adigal came and hugged all of us during Navarathri, as Swami Kripananda wrote, incredibly powerful waves of love began to surge inside me for the next two days to the extent I did not know what to do with this immense and intense unbelievably powerful wave moving through me. 

Swami Kripananda writes further that "whether Shaktipat (a process by which the guru awakens kundalini) comes to us dramatically like a sonic boom or very quietly and subtly as it does to many people the awakened kundalini totally transforms our outlook and our experience of ourselves." I guess I fall into the latter. 

As Swami Kripananda quotes "an aphorism of the kundalini tradition, a guru should be enlightened, he should pierce all the inner blocks and he should transmit and control the shakti spiritual energy, I am blessed to have Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal who gave me this gift, constantly monitor us, and drop in often to relate what was taking place within hence enlightening us. 

I had a father of my daughter's schoolmate tell me that a stranger swami from abroad who was visiting touched him in his abdomen and he felt a swirling sensation within on their very first visit at a public park. Sadly no relationship or correspondence between them ever took place. It was a case of hit and run. The receiver of this energy soon fell into a state of mess both on the outside and inside, having added more woes by seeing numerous other established gurus and taking on more initiations. His gurus were not around when he needed them most. When he stepped into my home, Agathiyar despatched Ramalinga Adigal's song the Arutpa which he listened to. It heightened his state momentarily before Agathiyar and deity Aiya subdued the energy in him and cleared the blockages within him. 

Swami Kripananda gives us a reminder "that it is not enough for the guru to awaken kundalini. The guru also controls and regulates the process helping to remove all the blocks and obstacles in the disciple's path until the disciple attains the ultimate realization of the self. Being one with the inner energy the guru can accomplish this on a subtle level from within."

When I too felt the need to have Tavayogi around to share my inner experiences and get clarification and remove some fears, Lord Muruga, Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Dhanvantri came to relieve my sadness telling me that Tavayogi was still with me in the state of Jothi and that they too were looking over me and guiding me further. They kept their word.

The guru brings on the grace of his guru, the Paramaguru, and the entire lineage of gurus before him. Swami Kripananda writes "because he has merged his individual awareness into the divine the guru can serve as a pure vessel through which its pure energy flows. It is this transmission of divine energy which awakens and guides the kundalini." We learn that it is not the guru in physical form that matters but the Guru Principle, as Swami Kripananda says of the principle of grace which had been clothed in a guru's physical form for years and which can be embodied in another.

If Agathiyar prepared my body by giving us several Yogic techniques and Siddha medicines to consume, the Kundalini Sakti once awakened is said to purify it further. When I asked Agathiyar what I should do, thinking that there were further Yoga practices to carry out, he told me there was nothing for me to do. "It shall work in you" he replied.

So how does the power work in us? Swami Kripananda writes, bit by bit as it moves through the subtle system, blocks are removed, addictions fall away, and one's life is set in order. Ultimately the experience of the self becomes constant. 

DEATH

From an article on https://www.britannica.com/science/human-body/Basic-form-and-development, we learn of the "Effects of Aging"

"As the human body ages, it undergoes various changes, which are experienced at different times and at varying rates among individuals. 

• The skin is one of the most accurate registers of aging. It becomes thin and dry and loses elasticity. Patches of darker pigmentation appear, commonly called liver spots, though they have no relation to that organ. 
• Hair grays and thins. 
• Wounds take longer to heal; some reparations take five times as long at 60 as at 10 years of age.
•  Sensory fibres in spinal nerves become fewer; the ganglion cells become pigmented and some of them die. In the auditory apparatus, some nerve cells and fibres are lost, and the ability to hear high notes diminishes. In the eye, the lens loses its elasticity.
• Organs such as the liver and kidneys lose mass with age and decline in efficiency. The brain is somewhat smaller after the age of 40 and shrinks markedly after age 75, especially in the frontal and occipital lobes. This shrinkage is not, however, correlated with declines in mental capacity. Intellectual declines in the elderly are the consequence of underlying disease conditions, such as Alzheimer's disease or cerebrovascular disease.
• The bones become lighter and more brittle because of a loss of calcium. This loss in bone mass is greater in women than men after the fifth decade. 
• In joints the cartilage covering the ends of bone becomes thinner and sometimes disappears in spots, so bone meets bone directly and the old joints creak. Compression of the spinal column can lead to a loss of height. 
• Muscular strength decreases but with marked individual variability.
• The arteries become fibrous and sclerosed. Because of decreasing elasticity, they tend to become rigid tubes. Fatty spots, which appear in their lining even in youth, are always present in old age.

In vitro experiments indicate that the body’s cells are programmed to undergo a finite number of divisions, after which time they lose their reproductive capacity. Thus, the potential longevity of the human body—about 100 years—seems to be encoded within the very cells of the body.

Do we only want to turn to God when we have reached this state? When I once told Tavayogi that I would love to see him attain the state of Jothi, he honestly told me that it was not possible in this life. The reason is that he had exceeded the age of 60. He said that it had to be attained before 60. Agathiyar said the same in explaining to me the consequences of activating the chakras late in age. I am 63 this year. Agathiyar in a song to Lord Narayana reminds us to take hold of God's hand early in life rather than postpone it for a later date or another day.

நாராயணா ஸ்ரீமத் நாராயணா

பத்ரி நாராயணா ஹரி நாராயணா

நாராயணா ஸத்ய நாராயணா

சூர்ய நாராயணா லக்ஷ்மி நாராயணா

நொந்துடலும் கிழமாகித் தளர்ந்தபின்

நோயில் நடுங்கிடும் போது – ஜீவ

நாடிகள் நைந்திடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

கசிந்துன்னைக் கூவுகின்றேன் அருள் செய்திடுவாய் ஹரி நாராயணா

நீடு கபம் கோழை ஈழை நெருக்கி – என்

நெஞ்சை அடைத்திடும் போது

நாவும் குழறியபோது – மனம் உன்னை

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – நான்

அன்றுனைக் கூவிட இன்றழைத்தேன் எனை

ஆண்டருள்வாய் ஹரி நாராயணா

ஐம்பொறியும் கரணங்களும் வாயுவும்

ஆடி அடங்கிடும் போது – எந்தன்

ஆவி பிரிந்திடும்போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

நம்பி உனைத் தொழுதே அழைத்தேன்

ஜகன் நாயகனே ஹரி நாராயணா

உற்றவர் பெற்றவர் மற்றவர் சுற்றமும்

ஒவென்று நின்றழும்போது – உயிர்

ஓசைகள் ஓய்ந்திடும்போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

பற்றி உனைப் பணிந்தே அழைத்தேன் – ஆபத்

பாந்தவனே ஹரி நாராயணா

என்பொருள் என்மனை என்றதெல்லாம் இனி

இல்லை என்றாகிடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – நீ

அன்று வரும் பொருட்டின்றழைத்தேன் அருள்

அச்சுதனே ஹரி நாராயணா

வந்தமெதூர் வளைத்து பிரித்தெனை

வாவென்றிழுத்திடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – அந்த

அந்தியம் நீ வர இன்றழைத்தேன்

ஸச்சிதானந்தனே ஹரி நாராயணா

Agathiyar places himself in our shoes and sees himself face old age and death. 

• At that hour when death approaches me I am not sure if I will remember you, hence I am remembering you now Narayana, please take heed of my calling,
• When kapam or phlegm arises and my tongue quivers, I am not sure if I will remember you, hence I am calling you now so that you would appear then to save me, Lord Narayana,
• When vayu or the vital air comes to a halt, and all senses seize to function, and my soul begins to leave, I am not sure if I would be thinking of you, hence I call out to you now so that you come to my aid then,
• When all that I thought was mine suddenly is of no significance and importance at the time of death, I am not sure if I will remember you my Lord, but nevertheless, I pray that you would come then Lord Narayana, hence I am calling you out now,
• When Yama's servants appear to bind and take me away, I cannot promise that I would think of you, hence I call you now my Lord,
• When my next of kin surround my death bed and wail and cry out, I don't know if your thought will arise in me, hence I cry out for you my Lord this very moment, so that you would appear to save me during my final moments! and so the song goes on.

At that moment of inability, immobility, and gone senile, or with acute illness, he says he might not be able to utter the name of Lord Narayana, hence he reminds us to take the opportunity to sing the praise of the Lord and acquire merits or tokens or gold coins that can be exchanged for an extension in life later in life, right now at this very moment while we are hale and healthy, quite akin to saving for a raining day.

CS Murugesan in his book, "Siddhargalin Saagaakalai", Azhagu Pathipagam, 1998, gives us a small inkling and hint into this miraculous possibility. The Siddhas have the ability to breathe into the Dhananjaya nerve the essential and life-saving Prana, something that Agathiyar often says that he has given his breath to revive and save his devotees. The Siddhas blow the lifegiving air into the Dhananjaya and revive the death. 

மரணம் ஏற்பட்டும் மூன்று நாள் வரை தங்கியிருக்கும் தனஞ்செயன் வாயுவில் பிராண வாயுவை உண்டாக்கும் அந்தரியாமி என்ற கூறுபாடு இருப்பதால் (உயிருள் உயிராய் இருந்து இயங்கும் இறைவன்) ஆற்றல் வல்ல சித்தர்கள் அதன் வாயிலாக பிராண வாயுவை அதிகரிக்கச் செய்து திரும்ப உயிர் பெற்றெலுதலும் சாத்தியமான காரியம்.

Could this be the resurrection that we know about in saints and holy men? Could this be what Ramalinga Adigal said that the dead shall arise? 

As we have Upagurus, so do we have Upavayus in our body. The chief vital air or Dasavayus are prana, apana, samana, udana, and vyana, while naga, kurma, krkara, devatta and dhananjaya are Upavayus. Dhananjaya being one of it, is said to be the last lingering Vayu or Air that keeps the body warm after all others have evacuated or vacated the body that was once our home. 

God is trying to open our eyes each moment to the true reality and get his message across to us but we fail to see it. We attend funerals just like attending another function. Here is where we are shown the impermanence of life. If we can come back from attending motivation courses renewed and alive and change our ways, why is it that the cord does not strike for us to change our ways and take hold of the hands of God after attending funerals?

Pattinathar laments at this sad situation upon seeing those gathered at funerals crying our the loss of their dear ones forgetting that their day shall come too. 

Srinatha Raghavan posted the following enlightening conversation on Fb some time back,

In Banares, I happened to meet a young Aghori or a Tantrik, on the ghats of Manikarnika. As I was just staring into the pyre of death, He came and sat beside me and struck a seamless conversation.

He: Death is as temporary as Life?

Me: Yes.

He: Do you know why Death (Yama) & Time (Kala) are so feared?

Me: No.

He: Because they are least understood?

Me: True.

Me: How to understand Death?

He: By experiencing it, even when alive.

Me: And how do we do that?

He: Under the guidance of a Guru, you can experience Death.

Me: What is Death?

He: There is nothing called Death?

Me: What?

He: Death as we know it, is just physical cessation of the Body and it's functions.

Me: Yes.

He: But what made the Body once tick, the spark of life, lives on and just like a drop of Water that has turned into Vapour, it goes back to become one with the whole.

Me: Interesting.

He: What is more interesting is what happens after that?

Me: What would that be?

He: It's the way the whole game once again, when the droplet separates itself from the whole to become an individual again.

Me: That's true.

He: Thus the play of life and death continues, till the drop has finally lived it's share of desires to assume a form and lives happily as a part of the formless whole.

Then giving me some Bhasma and a Rudraksha, as a parting gift, He said, "May this Bhasma ever remind you of the impermanence of life and death and the Rudraksha of the latent Divinity that lay hidden within you, which is nothing less than Shivahood?"

Here too we miss the lesson in adorning the sacred ash or vibhuti daily. If the reason we are asked to adorn our forehead and body is to remind us that death shall visit us someday, sadly we adorn it just like any other attire or accessory or an outward symbol of our devotion or bhakti.

Death is another doorway to another journey says Agathiyar. One who faces death boldly is indeed a Siddha he says. மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு. மரணபயம் வேண்டாம். எவன்  ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான்.

From www.lionsroar.com we read that "In Buddhism generally, death isn’t death - it’s a staging area for further life." Time too doesn't stand still. "As soon as it occurs, it immediately falls into the past." "All conditioned things have the nature of vanishing,” the Buddha said. All conditioned things pass away. Nothing remains as it was. The body changes and weakens as it ages. In response to this, and to a lifetime’s experience, the mind changes as well. The way one thinks of, views, and feels about life and the world is different. Even the same thoughts one had in youth or midlife take on a different flavor when held in older age." (Source: www.lionsroar.com)

The message of the world’s great Upanishadic Siddhas, retold by Swami Satprakashananda in his book "Meditation - Its Process, Practice, and Culmination, published by Sri Ramakrishna Math, Chennai, echoes the words of Agathiyar who told me not to be afraid of death. 

“Death is not your final end. Do not give way to despair. You are not destined to be subject to this play of dualities forever. There is the Supreme Being, The very perfection of existence, Which you can reach in this mortal life and where you can find life beyond death and complete fulfillment of your ideal. Therein is the culmination of your knowledge, Therein is the consummation of your love, Therein is complete rest, and therein dwells unruffled peace. There shines the light that never fails, In addition, there abides joy unbounded. How can man reach that? Through this very life, By regulating this mortal life he can reach the immortal.”

THE GURU'S GRACE

Man is created perfect in every sense. Man is the greatest miracle. I tend to look at the body with awe. Who must have created it? "The human body, the physical substance of the human organism, is composed of living cells and extracellular materials and organized into tissues, organs, and systems. These four basic cell types, together with their extracellular materials, form the fundamental tissues of the human body. Chemically, the human body consists mainly of water and of organic compounds—i.e., lipids, proteins, carbohydrates, and nucleic acids.  (Source:https://www.britannica.com/science/human-body)

Talking to Acharya Gurudasan about chakras, I gather that the Muladhara chakra was solely concerned with survival. This would be the state of the very first man. Next, his concern moved to procreation. He then stood at Svadhisthana. I guess this is how man evolved to become the present human. Can I then say that it is only after his higher chakras were activated that he turned his concern to higher things in life, especially wanting to know his purpose in life; why he had taken birth and where was he before this, and where was he going after this. 

For instance, the breath that travels and alternates every two hours between the two nostrils and its associated Ida and Pingala Nadi serves him well and keeps him alive. He never turns his sight on the higher possibilities available to him. But when he turns his sight within and brings his breath to run through the central Nadi Sushumna, all grace and opportunities open up within to an entirely new experience and perspective of the self and the world around us.

"When one’s consciousness or conscious existence is centrally poised in the central axis of the spino-medullar column or rather the cerebrospinal column or at the Sahasrara, the top of the head, both the said dual aspects or currents can be balanced continuously and in all respects-in the physical, vital and mental levels of one’s existence. That is the blissful spiritual or Yogic life when one is said to be equipoised and comes to live and breathe centrally in Sushumna, the central spinal column." (Source: Vallalar's Vision of Nuclear Physics and Nervous System by T.R. Thulasiram)

Man is the greatest miracle yet we disregard this body. It is the greatest treasure and means to evolve to other states and stages of consciousness. It is only man who can evolve to become divine. The means is through worship of those who had reached this state and through the many methods, and practices that are handed over to us by them. 

Swami Muktananda explains why one needs a master in his book "Kundalini - The Secret of Life", Siddha Yoga Publication, 1994, 

 

“The Guru has found everything you are seeking; that which you want has become the Guru’s wealth. The difference between you and the Guru is that you are the seed and the Guru is the full-grown tree; you are the beginning, and he is the end. If he tries to discover a path by himself, he will simply go around in circles, walking for a long time but never reaching his goal.”

In "Secret of the Siddhas", a Siddha Yoga Publication, 1980, Swami Muktananda writes, "Forgetfulness of one’s true nature is the moss of ignorance that muddies the experience of the self. The Guru is the means of removing it. The grace of a Siddha simply removes the veil of ignorance so that one realizes that one is already perfect. For this reason, all scriptures and Sadhana are simply means of washing away the filth of ignorance. They have no ability of their own to reveal the wisdom of the self because that principle is self-existent, perfect, and always manifest.”

Paul Zweig in the introduction to Swami Muktananda’s "The Perfect Relationship", Syda Foundation, 1985, writes, “Swami Muktananda explains over and over again that only the Guru can point the way on this subtlest of all paths. He felt that God's 'secret’ was not contained in any Sanskrit formula, ancient ritual, or technique of meditation; that severe austerities and physical deprivation would not reveal it. He felt that the ‘secret’ resided with great beings, with saints; they were themselves the ‘secret’ and he could learn what they were by loving them and sitting at their feet. Swami Muktananda himself traveled all over India seeking a Guru. He became a monk at the ashram of Siddharuda Swami. After almost twenty-five years, he met Bhagawan Nithyananda. “In a flash of self-understanding he knew that he had found his other half; that now he was whole again.” Swami Muktananda realized that the ‘secret’ was with the Guru and so the need for one to learn at the feet of such a Guru.”

Swami Shivananda of Rishikesh too went in search of a Guru and explains how he benefited from the association with the Guru. After serving as a doctor in Malaya Shivananda decided to quit his career and become a mendicant in 1923. He writes, 

“I led the life of a wandering monk, just for a short period, in search of my Guru and of a suitable place charged with spiritual vibrations, for spending my life in seclusion and to do rigorous Sadhana. I met many Mahatmas and learned wonderful lessons. I came to Rishikesh in June 1924 and found it my destination. I prayed to the Lord for his grace. From the sacred hands of Paramahansa Viswananda Saraswati, I received holy initiation on the bank of the Ganga on 1 June 1924. My Guru gave me initiation and enough spiritual strength and blessings.” 

Yogi Ramsuratkumar too went in search of a Guru. In 1947 with a burning desire to realize his innate divinity, he set off in search of a master. The search for his spiritual father brought Ramsuratkumar first to Sri Aurobindo and later to Ramana Maharishi. After spending three days with Ramana Maharishi he moved on to Swami Ramdas. When Ramana Maharishi followed by Aurobindo, passed away, Ramsuratkumar thought that he should offer himself to the remaining sole savior Ramdas. Ramsuratkumar had at last found his master. Although he had seen Ramdas numerous times before, he came to recognize Ramdas as a truly great Siddha now. 

I am blessed to become a student of Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai. Swami was himself a student of Yogi Ramsuratkumar. Through his connection with his masters, I guess I have come to receive the blessings of Ramana, Aurobindo, and Ramdas too. 

Swami Muktananda stresses, 

“Without the Guru’s company, it is difficult to contemplate the self. Without the Guru’s teaching, there is no discipline in one’s life. Without the Guru’s blessing, there is no love. Without the Guru’s knowledge, there is no end to desire, the intellect does not receive the light of wisdom, and the delusion and pain created by duality are not eradicated, nor are doubts dispelled. The Guru is as necessary as Prana, the life force, is necessary to the body.” 

I guess loving Agathiyar and sitting at his feet paid off for me and the rest. We are blessed to have Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal come often and bless, touch, hug, stroke, and initiate, activate our within by giant leaps. Otherwise, we would be struggling to climb the stairs. The Guru sends upagurus to coach and guide us further. 

Ram Dass in "Paths to God – Living the Bhagavadgita", Harmony Books, 2004, (Das R., 2004) writes, “A Satguru is the one who is the doorway. Along the way, however, there are the Upagurus. They are teachings for us; they are like marker stones along the road – teaching rather than teachers.” 

It is beautiful to read that we are surrounded by a web of well-wishers waiting to help us get free, as Ram Dass writes, 

“We look around and see that we are being guided, protected. Besides the Satguru and Upagurus on the physical plane, there are astral guides, and beings on all those other planes as well. We are surrounded by a web of well-wishers, all wanting to help us get free.” 

Swami Muktananda writes, in "Where Are You Going. A Guide To The Spiritual Journey" published by Syda Foundation, 1989, 

“Such guides exist…they enter our lives when we are ready to know the truth about ourselves, when we are ready to discover our own inner reality. Meeting us inwardly and outwardly, on every level, at every stage of our journey, the Guru accompanies us so that we may arrive at the goal. Meeting the Guru, we have an experience of the truth. Meeting the Siddha Guru, we receive the blessings of all the perfected ones.” 

I was in joy when Ramalinga Adigal told us "Our Father Agathiyan will come within you to draw the curtain aside. That is the meaning of the song. My Father Agathiyar is in all of you bidding his will. Follow in his path. He shall assist you to drop the veil. Arutjhothi blesses you. Arutjothi Aandavar blesses you. You are on the right track. Agathiyan shall lead you to Arutjhothi" Ramalinga Adigal asks that we continue to take the Holy Feet of "Appan Agathiyan" as he addresses Agathiyar, as Satguru, and that he would help remove the veil of ignorance in us and show us to Arutperunjhoti. "His holy feet shall be salvation for you. He is all. Go deeper. He shall take care. He shall bring you to the light", he added. "Agathiyar shall set aside the veil that hides Arutperunjhoti from you", he promised. "Since you came to Agathiyar and his path, he will be the guiding light", he says. He asks that if we continue on his path, Agathiyar shall lead us to Arutperunjhoti. Agathiyar shall remain a guiding light for you, then, now, and forever." He asked us to kindle the flame within to burn with such intensity that it shall draw aside the veil or curtain that stands between us and God. There is a need to shed the veil or curtain. The means is to light the Jothi or light or flame in us. 

திரை விலக உங்களில் இருக்கும் ஜோதி அதனைச் சுடர்விட செய்யுங்கள். என் அப்பன் அகத்தியன் உங்களுக்குள் வந்து அத்திரையை விலக்கிவிடுவார். அதுவே இப்பாடலின் பொருள். என் அப்பன் அகத்தியன் உங்களுக்குள் இருந்து வழி நடத்தி வருகிறார். அவன் வழியிலே நடந்து வாருங்கள். அத்திரை விலக்குவதற்க்கு அவன் அருள் புரிவான். அருட்ஜோதி உங்களை ஆசீர்வதித்தது. அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ஆண்டவர் உங்களை ஆசீர்வதித்தார். செல்லும் வழி சரி. அகத்தியன் அருட்ஜோதியை நோக்கி அழைத்துச் செல்வான். 

TR Thulasiram wrote in his booklet "தெய்வீக மனித புது இன சிருஷ்டிக்கு அருட்பிரகாசரும் ஸ்ரீ அரவிந்தரும் அன்னையும்" that Ramalinga Adigal very much wanted others to realize his experience and state. He went further to bring the Jothi within these people and have him rule over them. "தம்மை பொறுத்த மட்டில் அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி அனுபவத்தை பூரணமாக தம் ஆதாரத்தின் முழுவதிலும் மேலும் கீழும் உள்ளும் புறமும் சுற்றும் சூழ்வும் மனோபிராண இந்திரியங்கள் உள்பட உடலிலும் நிறைந்து விளங்கும் பேற்றை வள்ளல் பெருமான் பெற்ற இருந்தார். என்றாலும் ஜோதியை உலகிற்கு கொண்டு வரவும் இங்கு நில உலகில் நிலை நிறுத்தவும் கூட்டாக எல்லா மக்களிடை உள்ளும் புறமும் விளங்கி நேரடியான அரசாட்சி செய்யவும் வேண்டி அவர் எல்லா வழிகளிலும் முயன்று ஈடுபட்டு தவங் கிடந்தார்."

This has taken place numerous times and whenever Ramalinga Adigal comes. We saw his joy in seeing us gathered and in hugging us. He truly wants us to achieve his state. How can we let him down? 

AURA

If a devotee who was meditating throughout the 7th day Navarathri puja where we had gathered in the home of a senior couple mentioned to the host that he saw Sivavakiyar in our midst, his young daughter mentioned that she could see nothing else but a blue aura in me. I am blessed. So are all the rests for Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal too came to bless all those gathered. They were especially overjoyed in seeing and hugging the children. The devotee through whom Ramalinga Adigal came told me later that he saw a blue light on his forehead as Ramalinga Adigal sat with us and lead us all into meditation. 

Only last night I was speaking to Mahindren regarding the Aura. I showed him an aura chart that I had taken on the insistence of a colleague back at my office in 2010.  

When Agathiyar told us to follow the Magnetic Wave that prevails in the moments where we remain connected, உங்களுக்குள் ஒரு காந்த அலை அதனோடு பயனீங்கள், some time back, I tried to figure out what he meant then. I wrote on it at https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2022/09/traveling-further.html. "If Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Tavayogi had spoken about the electrical and chemical energies prevalent all around us and in the universe, and also within us, that is enhanced by Puja, Nadi Sudhi, Dega Sudhi, and transforming the body from Asudha Degam to Sudha Degam and Pranava Degam and Gnana Degam and Oli Degam, what did Agathiyar mean when he said to go with the flow of the Magnetic Wave? This made me search for answers. As I took Tavayogi's book "Andamum Pindamum" in my hands and opened a page and read it, there was the answer waiting for me. As science says that we and everything else on the face of the earth are subjected to the pull of gravity exerted from its center and once we break loose of its force we are space-borne and free, so too man is subjected to this force within his body. 

பூமியின் ஈர்ப்புச் சக்தியான மையப் பகுதியைக் கடந்து எந்த ஒரு பொருளோ புவி ஈர்ப்புத் தன்மைக்கு அப்பால் சென்றால் அது வெட்டவெளியில் சுதந்திரமாக மிதக்கிறது என்று விஞ்ஞானம் கூறுகிறது. அதேபோல் மனிதனும் தன்னை கீழ்நோக்கி இருக்கும் மூலாதார சக்தியை மேல் நோக்கிச் செலுத்தினால் பிண்டத்தின் ஈர்ப்புச் சக்தியைக் கடந்தால் மனிதனும் வெட்டவெளியில் சுதந்திரமாக இருக்கலாம்.

ஆனால் மனிதன் உடலில் இருக்கும் வரை மேல்நோக்கிப் பயணம் செய்ய முடியாது. ஆகவே பஞ்சபூத உடலை வேதியியல் மாற்றத்தால் மாற்றி மூல அணுவாக மாற்றிப் புவியீர்ப்புக் கோட்டை கடந்து வெட்ட வெளியில் சேர்ந்து சுதந்திரமாக உலாவுவதே ஞானம் ஆகும். அதுவே சொரூப சித்தி எனப்படும். அதைப் போதிப்பதுதான் சித்தர் நெறி."

Now I am beginning to see it clearer after the young girl's revelation. Agathiyar had spoken about the electromagnetic field that is the Aura. From https://www.keen.com/articles/spiritual/blue-aura-personality we learn that,

"Auras themselves are unique electromagnetic fields, which reflect the spiritual conditions and dominant chakras of the people they surround. Your dominant aura color usually corresponds to your most dominant chakra. In other words, your blue chakra is as dominant as your aura is blue."

Agathiyar had also asked us if we feel certain sensations and vibrations in us. From https://www.healthline.com/health/what-is-an-aura#are-they-real Christina Lonsdale says that “‘Vibes’ is short for ‘vibrational frequency,’ which is what an aura is comprised of,” “We’re all broadcasting like radio stations without even knowing it,” Lonsdale says. In her Radiant Human project, Lonsdale uses a specialized camera to capture the subject’s energy. “The camera uses hand sensors that pick up this energy field and a proprietary algorithm matches this energy to a color,” she says.

This is how I had my Aura Analysis taken at a center that serves in selecting auspicious days, the science of names, Chinese astrology, and feng shui, besides aura photos. 

The site quotes Emma Mildon too, “Our frequency, or vibe, is what others can sense or what attracts or repels us from others, depending on how our frequency works with theirs.”

I understand the reason Agathiyar has asked me to write the blog and share my experiences as in sharing I am learning too. From the same site we learn that "At the Spiritual layer, you may connect with other people over spiritual matters. You’re said to grow and shine brighter when you teach, share, and engage with others on a spiritual level."

LENDING AN EAR

Ramalinga Adigal came last night on the eve of his Jayanthi which is today. We are indeed blessed to have him come and bless us just days after he came to bring down Arutperunjothi's grace on all of us gathered for the Navarathri Puja at a devotee's home. 

He asked that I chew 3 pieces of clove which I did immediately in his presence. I have been having a dry cough for more than a month since I returned from my hometown taking an electric train back. The air conditioner in the train cabin was so cold that I caught a cold.

Agathiyar too has asked me to close the windows when I go to bed telling me that my body needs heat now and the cool night air will do harm. 

Moments before Ramalinga Adigal came Mahendran and I were talking about whether to listen to others' grouses or not. The senior devotee who hosted the Navarathri puja was asked to volunteer at a couple of temples during the post-Covid period till now. He gets devotees coming up to him asking him to place their requests to the presiding deity Lord Ganapathy. The devotee would give an ear and move into the inner sanctum and ask that the Lord put them out of their miseries. In the days of my worship to the Siddhas, when Agathiyar used to send many to my home, some would begin to talk about their problems. As these were the initial days of my home puja, I and my wife would listen to them. But we made a mistake of giving suggestions and advice. When these came back to us, I asked Tavayogi why it was happening. He apprehended us for involving. He told us to show them to Agathiyar sitting as a bronze statue in my home instead. Let Agathiyar handle it he said. We learned a lesson then. Knowing Tavayogi he does not mess with others' karma, we too stayed clear from it making known our stand to Agathiyar henceforth. Mahin and I were asking ourselves whether we should listen to others' problems, lend a shoulder for them to cry, and comfort them in their times of trial. That is when Ramalinga Adigal comes to deliver the verdict. He said that Agathiyar listens through us. As such we were to keep our ears open. We got the message after Ramalinga Adigal cleared the air. 

BLISS 2

I can hardly think, speak or write in those moments of bliss. But I push myself to document my experiences lest I forget them as memory fails me these days. Eating has become religious too. I can hardly open my eyes while eating. The whole body is savoring the food instead of only the tongue as previously. I understand why our elders and ancestors were so steep in tradition back then for they saw through the physical self and addressed the soul as the Siddhas did. In inviting a visitor at the door, we welcome the deity too who follows them. A verse from Agathiyar's song "Shanmuga Nayagan Thondriduvan" that mentions the many ways Lord Murugan appears and comes, says that he follows into the homes where his devotees step into, அவன் பக்தர் நுழைந்திடும் வீட்டினிலே. Indeed Agathiyar has identified to us deities who follow devotees to our home AVM. In serving food to these visitors we serve the deities that live and move with them too. Agathiyar has said that in cooking and serving food he feeds the "elementals" residing in the body of his devotees. 

I now understand what went on in the days when I began puja solo in my home. I would come out in a state of bliss and tell my wife if only I could pass it on to her. I would cry and laugh spontaneously. These continue during group puja and also at temples. I know now that the soul has connected with the divine who is present both in our homes and the temples and connects with the souls of the devotees who gather around after watching Ramalinga Adigal coming through a devotee burst into spontaneous laughter and cry, hugging the devotees gathered to celebrate the 7th-day puja for Goddess Ma at the home of a senior couple. 

BLISS 1

It is so beautiful. The sensation that was lingering at the top of my head has broadened and expanded to a larger area of my head reaching the temples and the eyes. As the honey oozes and drips from the honeycomb when full, so does this sensation drench my head with coolness and sweetness. The breath is dominating now keeping me away from attending or focusing my attention on all my usual activities, even the moments of play that I enjoyed with my grandchildren. I have no idea what is taking place but it is so blissful. I should learn to try to sustain it as Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal and Tavayogi said of all these sensations that arise.

The horse that went astray riding the Ida and Pingala once was led to take a new route that of the Sushumna has trot the path arriving at the cliff that overlooks the ocean of Bliss and taken a leap into Bliss. I have only Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, my gurus and upagurus, and all the devotees who joined me in puja and dharma and who wished me well.  

GETTING OUR ATTENTION

Today I had my eldest granddaughter pick up a mounting board and place it on the floor the moment she called me to play picnic in our living room. What do you know? Her little sister and brother immediately came and sat with her on the mounting board. A space was created where they began to play together. This is what I learned during a course on Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) back then too. We were asked to throw an imaginary circle on the stage before we step on it. This would remove stage fright and give us the courage to address the audience or spectators. It worked. We have been to concerts and shows, right? At times there is a curtain in theatres and stage shows right? Before the show starts either the curtain is drawn aside, music begins, or the spotlights bring our attention to the artiste's entry on stage capturing the attention of the audience that was dispersed moments ago.

Similarly, we bring people's attention to a spot or a center in meditation too as in concerts. If most books on Yoga and masters suggest various means to bring our focus to a space where we can finally settle in, all of these needed our effort and discipline. It never worked for me. I had prayed to Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal to make it easy for me and bring it on by his grace as I could not do it even if I tried hard. These most compassionate gurus threw a space before me and have asked me to step in. How wonderful. The swirling sensation in my abdomen several weeks ago was felt on the top of my head the following day but with a lesser intensity. There was a coolness that prevailed in that region. If I had found it challenging to sit and go within all these years, this sensation takes me there easily these days. I understand now that we need a point of focus for meditation to happen. 

The coolness that was felt at the top of my head has expanded to the back of my head too. At the same time, a tightness is felt in the forehead, eyes, and nose. This tightness was experienced on a larger scale when Agathiyar told me that my Muladhara Chakra was open back then in the years following 2010. After that, he said the energy had stagnated at Svathisthana. Only recently did he open the bund and let the ponded water out. I am surprised that the flood waters did not pond in the other chakras but reached the ocean of Sahasrara. What can I say but a BIG THANK YOU to Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal. 

Last night we gathered all the children of the AVM family at the home of a senior couple who were devotees to usher the 7th day of Navarathri prayers. The children sang songs to Ma. Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Goddess Ma came to bless all those present through devotees. Ramalinga Adigal brought down the Grace of Arutperunjothi Aadavar on us in torrents. There was a shower of energy and grace through the night. We could feel and understand his compassion towards us and his yearning that we all arise to his state. We brought back the bliss into our homes too. 

We are truly happy that we could pass on the prayers to our children and grandchildren having picked up the worship of the Siddhas and sitting with our families. Now it is time to pass on the flame to these children to carry one. 

GETTING IN TOUCH WITH PRANA

My daily routine has somewhat gone haywire. Never had I taken a late dinner. It is always somewhere around 7pm But there I was making some noodles at 12 midnight several days ago. Today I felt so hot inside me upon waking at 3am. I did the breathing exercises Tavayogi showed. I had to cool myself so I took my bath at 4am. On came a hunger at that hour that I had to appease too. I toasted 4 slices of bread and ate that. I worked on the blog till 6am and lay down to continue my sleep. I feel the heat as I type now. It is 9pm. The heat has not subsided. But my top of the head is cool and I still sense the flowering happening. 

I am wondering when the seed was planted and it germinated. When did it grow and began to flower? When did this all happen? I am trying to place all that took place chronologically so that I shall get a clear picture. 

If initially, Tavayogi introduced us to forceful breathing, and Nadi Suddhi, later Agathiyar, and Ramalinga Adigal told us to observe the breath. The former techniques helped clear the pathway for Prana to come in in larger volumes. Rapid inhaling and exhaling brings more prana within that can be felt expanding to the verge of the body bursting and rupturing. If normal breathing was limited in volume and filled just the lungs, the capacity of one's absorption of Prana after the practice of these Pranayama techniques was tremendous traveling throughout the body reaching every cell.  Then one could take in the prevalent Prana around us without placing the effort as before. Just standing outside in nature one could feed on the Prana in the air just as we take food and drink. If walking in nature delivers an abundance of Prana, walking barefoot and grounding oneself with Mother Earth, taps the energy off the ground too. Moving into the sunlight seals the pores of the skin with Prana. Taking a dip in the river or even during our daily showers drenches the body in Prana. Sitting in front of an open fire or during Homam sends in more. 

Pandit Gopi Krishna in his book "Kundalini - Path to Higher Consciousness", Orient Paperbacks, 1976, says "Normally the work of extraction of prana to feed the brain is done by a limited group of nerves, but with the awakening of Kundalini, other and more extensive groups of nerves are stirred to activity, leading to the transmission of an enormous and enhanced supply of a more concentrated form of pranic radiation into the brain drawn, from a vastly increased area of the body."

BKS Iyengar in the foreword to "Hatha Yoga Pradipika of Svatmarama", Rieker, the Aquarian Press 1992 writes on what pursues.

"When the nervous, circulatory, respiratory, digestive, endocrine, and genito-excretory systems are cleansed through asana, Prana moves unobstructed to the remotest cells and feeds them with a copious supply of energy. Thus rejuvenated and revitalized, the body - the instrument of the self - moves towards the goal of self-realization."

Swami Vivekananda elaborates in his ‘RAJA YOGA – Conquering the Internal Nature’, Advaita Ashrama, Calcutta, 1998, says "The whole world is in motion because of Prana. The most obvious manifestation of Prana is the breath. To reach the subtle we must take the help of the gross, and so, slowly travel towards the most subtle until we gain our point. To get into the subtle perception, we need to begin with the grosser perception. From the external, we move to the internal. Use the breath to slowly enter the body and find out the subtle forces at work in the body."

Agathiyar says that the breath is Uyir or Life. It is this Prana that when it resides in us keeps us alive. Swami Rama in his "Meditation and its Practice", writes, "As long as the body receives the vital force, or prana, through the breath, the body/mind relationship is sustained. When this connection is disrupted the conscious mind fails and the body is separated from the inner unit of life. This separation is called death."

If reciting the names of the Siddhas connected us with them, the mantras chanted energized both the self and the surroundings, and lighting the Homam connected us to the Prapanjam, Swami Rama in asking to simply become aware of the breath, says, "Breath awareness enables us to experience deeper levels of consciousness that cannot normally be experienced. Thus the first step in this process is the development of breath awareness. When the mind begins to follow the flow of the breath one becomes aware of the reality that there is a link between oneself and the center of the cosmos which supplies breath to all living creatures." This is connecting with the Prapanjam. With Prana accessible to us, it is time to learn to bring awareness and sense to it and partake in its richness and wealth.