DEATH

From an article on https://www.britannica.com/science/human-body/Basic-form-and-development, we learn of the "Effects of Aging"

"As the human body ages, it undergoes various changes, which are experienced at different times and at varying rates among individuals. 

• The skin is one of the most accurate registers of aging. It becomes thin and dry and loses elasticity. Patches of darker pigmentation appear, commonly called liver spots, though they have no relation to that organ. 
• Hair grays and thins. 
• Wounds take longer to heal; some reparations take five times as long at 60 as at 10 years of age.
•  Sensory fibres in spinal nerves become fewer; the ganglion cells become pigmented and some of them die. In the auditory apparatus, some nerve cells and fibres are lost, and the ability to hear high notes diminishes. In the eye, the lens loses its elasticity.
• Organs such as the liver and kidneys lose mass with age and decline in efficiency. The brain is somewhat smaller after the age of 40 and shrinks markedly after age 75, especially in the frontal and occipital lobes. This shrinkage is not, however, correlated with declines in mental capacity. Intellectual declines in the elderly are the consequence of underlying disease conditions, such as Alzheimer's disease or cerebrovascular disease.
• The bones become lighter and more brittle because of a loss of calcium. This loss in bone mass is greater in women than men after the fifth decade. 
• In joints the cartilage covering the ends of bone becomes thinner and sometimes disappears in spots, so bone meets bone directly and the old joints creak. Compression of the spinal column can lead to a loss of height. 
• Muscular strength decreases but with marked individual variability.
• The arteries become fibrous and sclerosed. Because of decreasing elasticity, they tend to become rigid tubes. Fatty spots, which appear in their lining even in youth, are always present in old age.

In vitro experiments indicate that the body’s cells are programmed to undergo a finite number of divisions, after which time they lose their reproductive capacity. Thus, the potential longevity of the human body—about 100 years—seems to be encoded within the very cells of the body.

Do we only want to turn to God when we have reached this state? When I once told Tavayogi that I would love to see him attain the state of Jothi, he honestly told me that it was not possible in this life. The reason is that he had exceeded the age of 60. He said that it had to be attained before 60. Agathiyar said the same in explaining to me the consequences of activating the chakras late in age. I am 63 this year. Agathiyar in a song to Lord Narayana reminds us to take hold of God's hand early in life rather than postpone it for a later date or another day.

நாராயணா ஸ்ரீமத் நாராயணா

பத்ரி நாராயணா ஹரி நாராயணா

நாராயணா ஸத்ய நாராயணா

சூர்ய நாராயணா லக்ஷ்மி நாராயணா

நொந்துடலும் கிழமாகித் தளர்ந்தபின்

நோயில் நடுங்கிடும் போது – ஜீவ

நாடிகள் நைந்திடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

கசிந்துன்னைக் கூவுகின்றேன் அருள் செய்திடுவாய் ஹரி நாராயணா

நீடு கபம் கோழை ஈழை நெருக்கி – என்

நெஞ்சை அடைத்திடும் போது

நாவும் குழறியபோது – மனம் உன்னை

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – நான்

அன்றுனைக் கூவிட இன்றழைத்தேன் எனை

ஆண்டருள்வாய் ஹரி நாராயணா

ஐம்பொறியும் கரணங்களும் வாயுவும்

ஆடி அடங்கிடும் போது – எந்தன்

ஆவி பிரிந்திடும்போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

நம்பி உனைத் தொழுதே அழைத்தேன்

ஜகன் நாயகனே ஹரி நாராயணா

உற்றவர் பெற்றவர் மற்றவர் சுற்றமும்

ஒவென்று நின்றழும்போது – உயிர்

ஓசைகள் ஓய்ந்திடும்போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – இன்று

பற்றி உனைப் பணிந்தே அழைத்தேன் – ஆபத்

பாந்தவனே ஹரி நாராயணா

என்பொருள் என்மனை என்றதெல்லாம் இனி

இல்லை என்றாகிடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – நீ

அன்று வரும் பொருட்டின்றழைத்தேன் அருள்

அச்சுதனே ஹரி நாராயணா

வந்தமெதூர் வளைத்து பிரித்தெனை

வாவென்றிழுத்திடும் போது – மனம்

எண்ணிடுமோ தெரியாது – அந்த

அந்தியம் நீ வர இன்றழைத்தேன்

ஸச்சிதானந்தனே ஹரி நாராயணா

Agathiyar places himself in our shoes and sees himself face old age and death. 

• At that hour when death approaches me I am not sure if I will remember you, hence I am remembering you now Narayana, please take heed of my calling,
• When kapam or phlegm arises and my tongue quivers, I am not sure if I will remember you, hence I am calling you now so that you would appear then to save me, Lord Narayana,
• When vayu or the vital air comes to a halt, and all senses seize to function, and my soul begins to leave, I am not sure if I would be thinking of you, hence I call out to you now so that you come to my aid then,
• When all that I thought was mine suddenly is of no significance and importance at the time of death, I am not sure if I will remember you my Lord, but nevertheless, I pray that you would come then Lord Narayana, hence I am calling you out now,
• When Yama's servants appear to bind and take me away, I cannot promise that I would think of you, hence I call you now my Lord,
• When my next of kin surround my death bed and wail and cry out, I don't know if your thought will arise in me, hence I cry out for you my Lord this very moment, so that you would appear to save me during my final moments! and so the song goes on.

At that moment of inability, immobility, and gone senile, or with acute illness, he says he might not be able to utter the name of Lord Narayana, hence he reminds us to take the opportunity to sing the praise of the Lord and acquire merits or tokens or gold coins that can be exchanged for an extension in life later in life, right now at this very moment while we are hale and healthy, quite akin to saving for a raining day.

CS Murugesan in his book, "Siddhargalin Saagaakalai", Azhagu Pathipagam, 1998, gives us a small inkling and hint into this miraculous possibility. The Siddhas have the ability to breathe into the Dhananjaya nerve the essential and life-saving Prana, something that Agathiyar often says that he has given his breath to revive and save his devotees. The Siddhas blow the lifegiving air into the Dhananjaya and revive the death. 

மரணம் ஏற்பட்டும் மூன்று நாள் வரை தங்கியிருக்கும் தனஞ்செயன் வாயுவில் பிராண வாயுவை உண்டாக்கும் அந்தரியாமி என்ற கூறுபாடு இருப்பதால் (உயிருள் உயிராய் இருந்து இயங்கும் இறைவன்) ஆற்றல் வல்ல சித்தர்கள் அதன் வாயிலாக பிராண வாயுவை அதிகரிக்கச் செய்து திரும்ப உயிர் பெற்றெலுதலும் சாத்தியமான காரியம்.

Could this be the resurrection that we know about in saints and holy men? Could this be what Ramalinga Adigal said that the dead shall arise? 

As we have Upagurus, so do we have Upavayus in our body. The chief vital air or Dasavayus are prana, apana, samana, udana, and vyana, while naga, kurma, krkara, devatta and dhananjaya are Upavayus. Dhananjaya being one of it, is said to be the last lingering Vayu or Air that keeps the body warm after all others have evacuated or vacated the body that was once our home. 

God is trying to open our eyes each moment to the true reality and get his message across to us but we fail to see it. We attend funerals just like attending another function. Here is where we are shown the impermanence of life. If we can come back from attending motivation courses renewed and alive and change our ways, why is it that the cord does not strike for us to change our ways and take hold of the hands of God after attending funerals?

Pattinathar laments at this sad situation upon seeing those gathered at funerals crying our the loss of their dear ones forgetting that their day shall come too. 

Srinatha Raghavan posted the following enlightening conversation on Fb some time back,

In Banares, I happened to meet a young Aghori or a Tantrik, on the ghats of Manikarnika. As I was just staring into the pyre of death, He came and sat beside me and struck a seamless conversation.

He: Death is as temporary as Life?

Me: Yes.

He: Do you know why Death (Yama) & Time (Kala) are so feared?

Me: No.

He: Because they are least understood?

Me: True.

Me: How to understand Death?

He: By experiencing it, even when alive.

Me: And how do we do that?

He: Under the guidance of a Guru, you can experience Death.

Me: What is Death?

He: There is nothing called Death?

Me: What?

He: Death as we know it, is just physical cessation of the Body and it's functions.

Me: Yes.

He: But what made the Body once tick, the spark of life, lives on and just like a drop of Water that has turned into Vapour, it goes back to become one with the whole.

Me: Interesting.

He: What is more interesting is what happens after that?

Me: What would that be?

He: It's the way the whole game once again, when the droplet separates itself from the whole to become an individual again.

Me: That's true.

He: Thus the play of life and death continues, till the drop has finally lived it's share of desires to assume a form and lives happily as a part of the formless whole.

Then giving me some Bhasma and a Rudraksha, as a parting gift, He said, "May this Bhasma ever remind you of the impermanence of life and death and the Rudraksha of the latent Divinity that lay hidden within you, which is nothing less than Shivahood?"

Here too we miss the lesson in adorning the sacred ash or vibhuti daily. If the reason we are asked to adorn our forehead and body is to remind us that death shall visit us someday, sadly we adorn it just like any other attire or accessory or an outward symbol of our devotion or bhakti.

Death is another doorway to another journey says Agathiyar. One who faces death boldly is indeed a Siddha he says. மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு. மரணபயம் வேண்டாம். எவன்  ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான்.

From www.lionsroar.com we read that "In Buddhism generally, death isn’t death - it’s a staging area for further life." Time too doesn't stand still. "As soon as it occurs, it immediately falls into the past." "All conditioned things have the nature of vanishing,” the Buddha said. All conditioned things pass away. Nothing remains as it was. The body changes and weakens as it ages. In response to this, and to a lifetime’s experience, the mind changes as well. The way one thinks of, views, and feels about life and the world is different. Even the same thoughts one had in youth or midlife take on a different flavor when held in older age." (Source: www.lionsroar.com)

The message of the world’s great Upanishadic Siddhas, retold by Swami Satprakashananda in his book "Meditation - Its Process, Practice, and Culmination, published by Sri Ramakrishna Math, Chennai, echoes the words of Agathiyar who told me not to be afraid of death. 

“Death is not your final end. Do not give way to despair. You are not destined to be subject to this play of dualities forever. There is the Supreme Being, The very perfection of existence, Which you can reach in this mortal life and where you can find life beyond death and complete fulfillment of your ideal. Therein is the culmination of your knowledge, Therein is the consummation of your love, Therein is complete rest, and therein dwells unruffled peace. There shines the light that never fails, In addition, there abides joy unbounded. How can man reach that? Through this very life, By regulating this mortal life he can reach the immortal.”

THE GURU'S GRACE

Man is created perfect in every sense. Man is the greatest miracle. I tend to look at the body with awe. Who must have created it? "The human body, the physical substance of the human organism, is composed of living cells and extracellular materials and organized into tissues, organs, and systems. These four basic cell types, together with their extracellular materials, form the fundamental tissues of the human body. Chemically, the human body consists mainly of water and of organic compounds—i.e., lipids, proteins, carbohydrates, and nucleic acids.  (Source:https://www.britannica.com/science/human-body)

Talking to Acharya Gurudasan about chakras, I gather that the Muladhara chakra was solely concerned with survival. This would be the state of the very first man. Next, his concern moved to procreation. He then stood at Svadhisthana. I guess this is how man evolved to become the present human. Can I then say that it is only after his higher chakras were activated that he turned his concern to higher things in life, especially wanting to know his purpose in life; why he had taken birth and where was he before this, and where was he going after this. 

For instance, the breath that travels and alternates every two hours between the two nostrils and its associated Ida and Pingala Nadi serves him well and keeps him alive. He never turns his sight on the higher possibilities available to him. But when he turns his sight within and brings his breath to run through the central Nadi Sushumna, all grace and opportunities open up within to an entirely new experience and perspective of the self and the world around us.

"When one’s consciousness or conscious existence is centrally poised in the central axis of the spino-medullar column or rather the cerebrospinal column or at the Sahasrara, the top of the head, both the said dual aspects or currents can be balanced continuously and in all respects-in the physical, vital and mental levels of one’s existence. That is the blissful spiritual or Yogic life when one is said to be equipoised and comes to live and breathe centrally in Sushumna, the central spinal column." (Source: Vallalar's Vision of Nuclear Physics and Nervous System by T.R. Thulasiram)

Man is the greatest miracle yet we disregard this body. It is the greatest treasure and means to evolve to other states and stages of consciousness. It is only man who can evolve to become divine. The means is through worship of those who had reached this state and through the many methods, and practices that are handed over to us by them. 

Swami Muktananda explains why one needs a master in his book "Kundalini - The Secret of Life", Siddha Yoga Publication, 1994, 

 

“The Guru has found everything you are seeking; that which you want has become the Guru’s wealth. The difference between you and the Guru is that you are the seed and the Guru is the full-grown tree; you are the beginning, and he is the end. If he tries to discover a path by himself, he will simply go around in circles, walking for a long time but never reaching his goal.”

In "Secret of the Siddhas", a Siddha Yoga Publication, 1980, Swami Muktananda writes, "Forgetfulness of one’s true nature is the moss of ignorance that muddies the experience of the self. The Guru is the means of removing it. The grace of a Siddha simply removes the veil of ignorance so that one realizes that one is already perfect. For this reason, all scriptures and Sadhana are simply means of washing away the filth of ignorance. They have no ability of their own to reveal the wisdom of the self because that principle is self-existent, perfect, and always manifest.”

Paul Zweig in the introduction to Swami Muktananda’s "The Perfect Relationship", Syda Foundation, 1985, writes, “Swami Muktananda explains over and over again that only the Guru can point the way on this subtlest of all paths. He felt that God's 'secret’ was not contained in any Sanskrit formula, ancient ritual, or technique of meditation; that severe austerities and physical deprivation would not reveal it. He felt that the ‘secret’ resided with great beings, with saints; they were themselves the ‘secret’ and he could learn what they were by loving them and sitting at their feet. Swami Muktananda himself traveled all over India seeking a Guru. He became a monk at the ashram of Siddharuda Swami. After almost twenty-five years, he met Bhagawan Nithyananda. “In a flash of self-understanding he knew that he had found his other half; that now he was whole again.” Swami Muktananda realized that the ‘secret’ was with the Guru and so the need for one to learn at the feet of such a Guru.”

Swami Shivananda of Rishikesh too went in search of a Guru and explains how he benefited from the association with the Guru. After serving as a doctor in Malaya Shivananda decided to quit his career and become a mendicant in 1923. He writes, 

“I led the life of a wandering monk, just for a short period, in search of my Guru and of a suitable place charged with spiritual vibrations, for spending my life in seclusion and to do rigorous Sadhana. I met many Mahatmas and learned wonderful lessons. I came to Rishikesh in June 1924 and found it my destination. I prayed to the Lord for his grace. From the sacred hands of Paramahansa Viswananda Saraswati, I received holy initiation on the bank of the Ganga on 1 June 1924. My Guru gave me initiation and enough spiritual strength and blessings.” 

Yogi Ramsuratkumar too went in search of a Guru. In 1947 with a burning desire to realize his innate divinity, he set off in search of a master. The search for his spiritual father brought Ramsuratkumar first to Sri Aurobindo and later to Ramana Maharishi. After spending three days with Ramana Maharishi he moved on to Swami Ramdas. When Ramana Maharishi followed by Aurobindo, passed away, Ramsuratkumar thought that he should offer himself to the remaining sole savior Ramdas. Ramsuratkumar had at last found his master. Although he had seen Ramdas numerous times before, he came to recognize Ramdas as a truly great Siddha now. 

I am blessed to become a student of Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai. Swami was himself a student of Yogi Ramsuratkumar. Through his connection with his masters, I guess I have come to receive the blessings of Ramana, Aurobindo, and Ramdas too. 

Swami Muktananda stresses, 

“Without the Guru’s company, it is difficult to contemplate the self. Without the Guru’s teaching, there is no discipline in one’s life. Without the Guru’s blessing, there is no love. Without the Guru’s knowledge, there is no end to desire, the intellect does not receive the light of wisdom, and the delusion and pain created by duality are not eradicated, nor are doubts dispelled. The Guru is as necessary as Prana, the life force, is necessary to the body.” 

I guess loving Agathiyar and sitting at his feet paid off for me and the rest. We are blessed to have Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal come often and bless, touch, hug, stroke, and initiate, activate our within by giant leaps. Otherwise, we would be struggling to climb the stairs. The Guru sends upagurus to coach and guide us further. 

Ram Dass in "Paths to God – Living the Bhagavadgita", Harmony Books, 2004, (Das R., 2004) writes, “A Satguru is the one who is the doorway. Along the way, however, there are the Upagurus. They are teachings for us; they are like marker stones along the road – teaching rather than teachers.” 

It is beautiful to read that we are surrounded by a web of well-wishers waiting to help us get free, as Ram Dass writes, 

“We look around and see that we are being guided, protected. Besides the Satguru and Upagurus on the physical plane, there are astral guides, and beings on all those other planes as well. We are surrounded by a web of well-wishers, all wanting to help us get free.” 

Swami Muktananda writes, in "Where Are You Going. A Guide To The Spiritual Journey" published by Syda Foundation, 1989, 

“Such guides exist…they enter our lives when we are ready to know the truth about ourselves, when we are ready to discover our own inner reality. Meeting us inwardly and outwardly, on every level, at every stage of our journey, the Guru accompanies us so that we may arrive at the goal. Meeting the Guru, we have an experience of the truth. Meeting the Siddha Guru, we receive the blessings of all the perfected ones.” 

I was in joy when Ramalinga Adigal told us "Our Father Agathiyan will come within you to draw the curtain aside. That is the meaning of the song. My Father Agathiyar is in all of you bidding his will. Follow in his path. He shall assist you to drop the veil. Arutjhothi blesses you. Arutjothi Aandavar blesses you. You are on the right track. Agathiyan shall lead you to Arutjhothi" Ramalinga Adigal asks that we continue to take the Holy Feet of "Appan Agathiyan" as he addresses Agathiyar, as Satguru, and that he would help remove the veil of ignorance in us and show us to Arutperunjhoti. "His holy feet shall be salvation for you. He is all. Go deeper. He shall take care. He shall bring you to the light", he added. "Agathiyar shall set aside the veil that hides Arutperunjhoti from you", he promised. "Since you came to Agathiyar and his path, he will be the guiding light", he says. He asks that if we continue on his path, Agathiyar shall lead us to Arutperunjhoti. Agathiyar shall remain a guiding light for you, then, now, and forever." He asked us to kindle the flame within to burn with such intensity that it shall draw aside the veil or curtain that stands between us and God. There is a need to shed the veil or curtain. The means is to light the Jothi or light or flame in us. 

திரை விலக உங்களில் இருக்கும் ஜோதி அதனைச் சுடர்விட செய்யுங்கள். என் அப்பன் அகத்தியன் உங்களுக்குள் வந்து அத்திரையை விலக்கிவிடுவார். அதுவே இப்பாடலின் பொருள். என் அப்பன் அகத்தியன் உங்களுக்குள் இருந்து வழி நடத்தி வருகிறார். அவன் வழியிலே நடந்து வாருங்கள். அத்திரை விலக்குவதற்க்கு அவன் அருள் புரிவான். அருட்ஜோதி உங்களை ஆசீர்வதித்தது. அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ஆண்டவர் உங்களை ஆசீர்வதித்தார். செல்லும் வழி சரி. அகத்தியன் அருட்ஜோதியை நோக்கி அழைத்துச் செல்வான். 

TR Thulasiram wrote in his booklet "தெய்வீக மனித புது இன சிருஷ்டிக்கு அருட்பிரகாசரும் ஸ்ரீ அரவிந்தரும் அன்னையும்" that Ramalinga Adigal very much wanted others to realize his experience and state. He went further to bring the Jothi within these people and have him rule over them. "தம்மை பொறுத்த மட்டில் அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி அனுபவத்தை பூரணமாக தம் ஆதாரத்தின் முழுவதிலும் மேலும் கீழும் உள்ளும் புறமும் சுற்றும் சூழ்வும் மனோபிராண இந்திரியங்கள் உள்பட உடலிலும் நிறைந்து விளங்கும் பேற்றை வள்ளல் பெருமான் பெற்ற இருந்தார். என்றாலும் ஜோதியை உலகிற்கு கொண்டு வரவும் இங்கு நில உலகில் நிலை நிறுத்தவும் கூட்டாக எல்லா மக்களிடை உள்ளும் புறமும் விளங்கி நேரடியான அரசாட்சி செய்யவும் வேண்டி அவர் எல்லா வழிகளிலும் முயன்று ஈடுபட்டு தவங் கிடந்தார்."

This has taken place numerous times and whenever Ramalinga Adigal comes. We saw his joy in seeing us gathered and in hugging us. He truly wants us to achieve his state. How can we let him down? 

AURA

If a devotee who was meditating throughout the 7th day Navarathri puja where we had gathered in the home of a senior couple mentioned to the host that he saw Sivavakiyar in our midst, his young daughter mentioned that she could see nothing else but a blue aura in me. I am blessed. So are all the rests for Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal too came to bless all those gathered. They were especially overjoyed in seeing and hugging the children. The devotee through whom Ramalinga Adigal came told me later that he saw a blue light on his forehead as Ramalinga Adigal sat with us and lead us all into meditation. 

Only last night I was speaking to Mahindren regarding the Aura. I showed him an aura chart that I had taken on the insistence of a colleague back at my office in 2010.  

When Agathiyar told us to follow the Magnetic Wave that prevails in the moments where we remain connected, உங்களுக்குள் ஒரு காந்த அலை அதனோடு பயனீங்கள், some time back, I tried to figure out what he meant then. I wrote on it at https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2022/09/traveling-further.html. "If Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Tavayogi had spoken about the electrical and chemical energies prevalent all around us and in the universe, and also within us, that is enhanced by Puja, Nadi Sudhi, Dega Sudhi, and transforming the body from Asudha Degam to Sudha Degam and Pranava Degam and Gnana Degam and Oli Degam, what did Agathiyar mean when he said to go with the flow of the Magnetic Wave? This made me search for answers. As I took Tavayogi's book "Andamum Pindamum" in my hands and opened a page and read it, there was the answer waiting for me. As science says that we and everything else on the face of the earth are subjected to the pull of gravity exerted from its center and once we break loose of its force we are space-borne and free, so too man is subjected to this force within his body. 

பூமியின் ஈர்ப்புச் சக்தியான மையப் பகுதியைக் கடந்து எந்த ஒரு பொருளோ புவி ஈர்ப்புத் தன்மைக்கு அப்பால் சென்றால் அது வெட்டவெளியில் சுதந்திரமாக மிதக்கிறது என்று விஞ்ஞானம் கூறுகிறது. அதேபோல் மனிதனும் தன்னை கீழ்நோக்கி இருக்கும் மூலாதார சக்தியை மேல் நோக்கிச் செலுத்தினால் பிண்டத்தின் ஈர்ப்புச் சக்தியைக் கடந்தால் மனிதனும் வெட்டவெளியில் சுதந்திரமாக இருக்கலாம்.

ஆனால் மனிதன் உடலில் இருக்கும் வரை மேல்நோக்கிப் பயணம் செய்ய முடியாது. ஆகவே பஞ்சபூத உடலை வேதியியல் மாற்றத்தால் மாற்றி மூல அணுவாக மாற்றிப் புவியீர்ப்புக் கோட்டை கடந்து வெட்ட வெளியில் சேர்ந்து சுதந்திரமாக உலாவுவதே ஞானம் ஆகும். அதுவே சொரூப சித்தி எனப்படும். அதைப் போதிப்பதுதான் சித்தர் நெறி."

Now I am beginning to see it clearer after the young girl's revelation. Agathiyar had spoken about the electromagnetic field that is the Aura. From https://www.keen.com/articles/spiritual/blue-aura-personality we learn that,

"Auras themselves are unique electromagnetic fields, which reflect the spiritual conditions and dominant chakras of the people they surround. Your dominant aura color usually corresponds to your most dominant chakra. In other words, your blue chakra is as dominant as your aura is blue."

Agathiyar had also asked us if we feel certain sensations and vibrations in us. From https://www.healthline.com/health/what-is-an-aura#are-they-real Christina Lonsdale says that “‘Vibes’ is short for ‘vibrational frequency,’ which is what an aura is comprised of,” “We’re all broadcasting like radio stations without even knowing it,” Lonsdale says. In her Radiant Human project, Lonsdale uses a specialized camera to capture the subject’s energy. “The camera uses hand sensors that pick up this energy field and a proprietary algorithm matches this energy to a color,” she says.

This is how I had my Aura Analysis taken at a center that serves in selecting auspicious days, the science of names, Chinese astrology, and feng shui, besides aura photos. 

The site quotes Emma Mildon too, “Our frequency, or vibe, is what others can sense or what attracts or repels us from others, depending on how our frequency works with theirs.”

I understand the reason Agathiyar has asked me to write the blog and share my experiences as in sharing I am learning too. From the same site we learn that "At the Spiritual layer, you may connect with other people over spiritual matters. You’re said to grow and shine brighter when you teach, share, and engage with others on a spiritual level."

LENDING AN EAR

Ramalinga Adigal came last night on the eve of his Jayanthi which is today. We are indeed blessed to have him come and bless us just days after he came to bring down Arutperunjothi's grace on all of us gathered for the Navarathri Puja at a devotee's home. 

He asked that I chew 3 pieces of clove which I did immediately in his presence. I have been having a dry cough for more than a month since I returned from my hometown taking an electric train back. The air conditioner in the train cabin was so cold that I caught a cold.

Agathiyar too has asked me to close the windows when I go to bed telling me that my body needs heat now and the cool night air will do harm. 

Moments before Ramalinga Adigal came Mahendran and I were talking about whether to listen to others' grouses or not. The senior devotee who hosted the Navarathri puja was asked to volunteer at a couple of temples during the post-Covid period till now. He gets devotees coming up to him asking him to place their requests to the presiding deity Lord Ganapathy. The devotee would give an ear and move into the inner sanctum and ask that the Lord put them out of their miseries. In the days of my worship to the Siddhas, when Agathiyar used to send many to my home, some would begin to talk about their problems. As these were the initial days of my home puja, I and my wife would listen to them. But we made a mistake of giving suggestions and advice. When these came back to us, I asked Tavayogi why it was happening. He apprehended us for involving. He told us to show them to Agathiyar sitting as a bronze statue in my home instead. Let Agathiyar handle it he said. We learned a lesson then. Knowing Tavayogi he does not mess with others' karma, we too stayed clear from it making known our stand to Agathiyar henceforth. Mahin and I were asking ourselves whether we should listen to others' problems, lend a shoulder for them to cry, and comfort them in their times of trial. That is when Ramalinga Adigal comes to deliver the verdict. He said that Agathiyar listens through us. As such we were to keep our ears open. We got the message after Ramalinga Adigal cleared the air. 

BLISS 2

I can hardly think, speak or write in those moments of bliss. But I push myself to document my experiences lest I forget them as memory fails me these days. Eating has become religious too. I can hardly open my eyes while eating. The whole body is savoring the food instead of only the tongue as previously. I understand why our elders and ancestors were so steep in tradition back then for they saw through the physical self and addressed the soul as the Siddhas did. In inviting a visitor at the door, we welcome the deity too who follows them. A verse from Agathiyar's song "Shanmuga Nayagan Thondriduvan" that mentions the many ways Lord Murugan appears and comes, says that he follows into the homes where his devotees step into, அவன் பக்தர் நுழைந்திடும் வீட்டினிலே. Indeed Agathiyar has identified to us deities who follow devotees to our home AVM. In serving food to these visitors we serve the deities that live and move with them too. Agathiyar has said that in cooking and serving food he feeds the "elementals" residing in the body of his devotees. 

I now understand what went on in the days when I began puja solo in my home. I would come out in a state of bliss and tell my wife if only I could pass it on to her. I would cry and laugh spontaneously. These continue during group puja and also at temples. I know now that the soul has connected with the divine who is present both in our homes and the temples and connects with the souls of the devotees who gather around after watching Ramalinga Adigal coming through a devotee burst into spontaneous laughter and cry, hugging the devotees gathered to celebrate the 7th-day puja for Goddess Ma at the home of a senior couple. 

BLISS 1

It is so beautiful. The sensation that was lingering at the top of my head has broadened and expanded to a larger area of my head reaching the temples and the eyes. As the honey oozes and drips from the honeycomb when full, so does this sensation drench my head with coolness and sweetness. The breath is dominating now keeping me away from attending or focusing my attention on all my usual activities, even the moments of play that I enjoyed with my grandchildren. I have no idea what is taking place but it is so blissful. I should learn to try to sustain it as Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal and Tavayogi said of all these sensations that arise.

The horse that went astray riding the Ida and Pingala once was led to take a new route that of the Sushumna has trot the path arriving at the cliff that overlooks the ocean of Bliss and taken a leap into Bliss. I have only Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, my gurus and upagurus, and all the devotees who joined me in puja and dharma and who wished me well.  

GETTING OUR ATTENTION

Today I had my eldest granddaughter pick up a mounting board and place it on the floor the moment she called me to play picnic in our living room. What do you know? Her little sister and brother immediately came and sat with her on the mounting board. A space was created where they began to play together. This is what I learned during a course on Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) back then too. We were asked to throw an imaginary circle on the stage before we step on it. This would remove stage fright and give us the courage to address the audience or spectators. It worked. We have been to concerts and shows, right? At times there is a curtain in theatres and stage shows right? Before the show starts either the curtain is drawn aside, music begins, or the spotlights bring our attention to the artiste's entry on stage capturing the attention of the audience that was dispersed moments ago.

Similarly, we bring people's attention to a spot or a center in meditation too as in concerts. If most books on Yoga and masters suggest various means to bring our focus to a space where we can finally settle in, all of these needed our effort and discipline. It never worked for me. I had prayed to Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal to make it easy for me and bring it on by his grace as I could not do it even if I tried hard. These most compassionate gurus threw a space before me and have asked me to step in. How wonderful. The swirling sensation in my abdomen several weeks ago was felt on the top of my head the following day but with a lesser intensity. There was a coolness that prevailed in that region. If I had found it challenging to sit and go within all these years, this sensation takes me there easily these days. I understand now that we need a point of focus for meditation to happen. 

The coolness that was felt at the top of my head has expanded to the back of my head too. At the same time, a tightness is felt in the forehead, eyes, and nose. This tightness was experienced on a larger scale when Agathiyar told me that my Muladhara Chakra was open back then in the years following 2010. After that, he said the energy had stagnated at Svathisthana. Only recently did he open the bund and let the ponded water out. I am surprised that the flood waters did not pond in the other chakras but reached the ocean of Sahasrara. What can I say but a BIG THANK YOU to Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal. 

Last night we gathered all the children of the AVM family at the home of a senior couple who were devotees to usher the 7th day of Navarathri prayers. The children sang songs to Ma. Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Goddess Ma came to bless all those present through devotees. Ramalinga Adigal brought down the Grace of Arutperunjothi Aadavar on us in torrents. There was a shower of energy and grace through the night. We could feel and understand his compassion towards us and his yearning that we all arise to his state. We brought back the bliss into our homes too. 

We are truly happy that we could pass on the prayers to our children and grandchildren having picked up the worship of the Siddhas and sitting with our families. Now it is time to pass on the flame to these children to carry one. 

GETTING IN TOUCH WITH PRANA

My daily routine has somewhat gone haywire. Never had I taken a late dinner. It is always somewhere around 7pm But there I was making some noodles at 12 midnight several days ago. Today I felt so hot inside me upon waking at 3am. I did the breathing exercises Tavayogi showed. I had to cool myself so I took my bath at 4am. On came a hunger at that hour that I had to appease too. I toasted 4 slices of bread and ate that. I worked on the blog till 6am and lay down to continue my sleep. I feel the heat as I type now. It is 9pm. The heat has not subsided. But my top of the head is cool and I still sense the flowering happening. 

I am wondering when the seed was planted and it germinated. When did it grow and began to flower? When did this all happen? I am trying to place all that took place chronologically so that I shall get a clear picture. 

If initially, Tavayogi introduced us to forceful breathing, and Nadi Suddhi, later Agathiyar, and Ramalinga Adigal told us to observe the breath. The former techniques helped clear the pathway for Prana to come in in larger volumes. Rapid inhaling and exhaling brings more prana within that can be felt expanding to the verge of the body bursting and rupturing. If normal breathing was limited in volume and filled just the lungs, the capacity of one's absorption of Prana after the practice of these Pranayama techniques was tremendous traveling throughout the body reaching every cell.  Then one could take in the prevalent Prana around us without placing the effort as before. Just standing outside in nature one could feed on the Prana in the air just as we take food and drink. If walking in nature delivers an abundance of Prana, walking barefoot and grounding oneself with Mother Earth, taps the energy off the ground too. Moving into the sunlight seals the pores of the skin with Prana. Taking a dip in the river or even during our daily showers drenches the body in Prana. Sitting in front of an open fire or during Homam sends in more. 

Pandit Gopi Krishna in his book "Kundalini - Path to Higher Consciousness", Orient Paperbacks, 1976, says "Normally the work of extraction of prana to feed the brain is done by a limited group of nerves, but with the awakening of Kundalini, other and more extensive groups of nerves are stirred to activity, leading to the transmission of an enormous and enhanced supply of a more concentrated form of pranic radiation into the brain drawn, from a vastly increased area of the body."

BKS Iyengar in the foreword to "Hatha Yoga Pradipika of Svatmarama", Rieker, the Aquarian Press 1992 writes on what pursues.

"When the nervous, circulatory, respiratory, digestive, endocrine, and genito-excretory systems are cleansed through asana, Prana moves unobstructed to the remotest cells and feeds them with a copious supply of energy. Thus rejuvenated and revitalized, the body - the instrument of the self - moves towards the goal of self-realization."

Swami Vivekananda elaborates in his ‘RAJA YOGA – Conquering the Internal Nature’, Advaita Ashrama, Calcutta, 1998, says "The whole world is in motion because of Prana. The most obvious manifestation of Prana is the breath. To reach the subtle we must take the help of the gross, and so, slowly travel towards the most subtle until we gain our point. To get into the subtle perception, we need to begin with the grosser perception. From the external, we move to the internal. Use the breath to slowly enter the body and find out the subtle forces at work in the body."

Agathiyar says that the breath is Uyir or Life. It is this Prana that when it resides in us keeps us alive. Swami Rama in his "Meditation and its Practice", writes, "As long as the body receives the vital force, or prana, through the breath, the body/mind relationship is sustained. When this connection is disrupted the conscious mind fails and the body is separated from the inner unit of life. This separation is called death."

If reciting the names of the Siddhas connected us with them, the mantras chanted energized both the self and the surroundings, and lighting the Homam connected us to the Prapanjam, Swami Rama in asking to simply become aware of the breath, says, "Breath awareness enables us to experience deeper levels of consciousness that cannot normally be experienced. Thus the first step in this process is the development of breath awareness. When the mind begins to follow the flow of the breath one becomes aware of the reality that there is a link between oneself and the center of the cosmos which supplies breath to all living creatures." This is connecting with the Prapanjam. With Prana accessible to us, it is time to learn to bring awareness and sense to it and partake in its richness and wealth. 

THE IMPORTANCE OF LISTENING

I had written in an earlier post on 1 August 2019 that Agathiyar tasked us with numerous assignments that brought me and others to physically engage ourselves, giving ourselves to the service of God, family, and our ancestors, fellow humans, animals, plants, and mineral kingdoms. He asked me to carry out many tasks with others whom he sent to my home, never revealing its purpose or the fruits of our efforts till a later date. I only knew about their significance through reading a blog that I had bookmarked many years earlier only to read it then. It was a translation of a document of Agathiyar's disclosure of the secret of taking human birth to the seers and sages gathered at the Tamil Sangam. Agathiyar summed it up under 5 tenets that each human had to adapt and accomplish here on the face of the earth. It was Vashisht Vaid's post that revealed the purpose of man in taking birth. The document cleared the air and made me understand that we have arrived quite unknowingly to achieving our purpose and mission here.

Agathiyar presented the 5 tenets to mankind at the Tamil Sangam, so that mankind shall gain salvation. The Siddhas thrived to elevate the human species to that of the nature of the Gods. This is true of them for till this day they have never given up on us although we tend to give up on them in the face of adversities. Agathiyar is said to have initiated human societies of that era into the age-old cultural order known as the Siddhar Neri. He imparted wisdom to its people and passed on the knowledge of medicine to many. P.Karthigayan points out that the Siddhas could achieve much during their times as they were bestowed with the gift of "performing spiritual, medical, and scientific marvels". "They claimed their presence in all locations, interacting with people over various periods of time", made possible due to their long life spans, and a result of attaining immortality. P.Karthigayan says that the Gods, immortals, long-lived kings, and scholars "had chiseled and shaped the society then." In this era, they continue to chisel and shape individuals who are willing to listen.

Besides giving us tasks to carry out with other devotees, Agathiyar monitored my personal progress closely and gave me several Yogic practices through his Nadi over the years. I followed whatever he said just like we carried out the numerous tasks he gave to execute. His recent clarification on what transpired several weeks back over two consecutive days has made me understand that just in doing his tasks we had arrived unknowingly at the destination that is often spoken about in Yoga. Indeed just as Agathiyar gave us numerous tasks and revealed the impact of it on us much later, similarly he gave us Yogic practices and revealed the results much later. Each of the tasks and practice he gave was life-changing but we never knew it until later. Agathiyar doesn't get us excited over things first. He comes by and lays the task and practice before us casually. If we take it up he comes to confirm or educate us on its results. 

Agathiyar doesn't speak about the goal or destination but only gives directives. I followed them without questioning them. If I were to question and explore them I would never get started. That is what is amiss in many. Given a mantra for instance they delay its practice in trying to understand the mantra. A mantra is not to be understood but recited. Similarly, if a yogic practice is given it needs to be started immediately. Discipline is of utmost importance in seeing through these ventures. Sadly we lack the discipline to do things. 

When Patanjali came in the Nadi and set a routine and discipline in food intake I listened and followed. I was blessed to have a wife who prepared everything that I read in health books and Siddha books and that came by way of these Nadi readings.  

When Lord Shiva came in a dream and asked me to put off the questions I had for another time in 1988, I did just as told. I did not it take it as a mere dream. I got the answers coming in after I read the Nadi in 2002 where I came to know about karma. 

When my nephew came over to my home and delivered a message and the Vasudeva mantra in 2001, I did not question him but took up the mantra, chanting it the very same day. Later I came to know that the mantra was to clear one of the knots within, the Vishnu granthi. The other two knots are Brahma granthi and Rudra granthi. We are told that further practice of Pranayama would pierce these too and the six chakras. R Venu Gopalan in his book, "The Hidden Mysteries of Kundalini" wrote that "Continuous practice of meditation on this mantra helps purify the thinking process. It also helps in dissolving all the past karmic deeds for a better future." Only with the past karma out of the way can we expect results from all our endeavors. The following year Agathiyar reveals to me in my very first Nadi reading that my past karma stood in my way as obstacles depriving me of gaining the merits of my home puja and yoga practices till then.

I took up the calling by Agathiyar to come to the worship of the Siddhas that was made in my Nadi reading in 2002. I came to know later that Agathiyar had come much earlier to clear the path for me to have the reading. Though my nephew too told me not to question the source of the message, he came around again after some time and told me it was from Agathiyar. The message came through his Paramaguru Gopal Pillai who came through a devotee. The painting of Lord Dhakshanamurthi that my nephew handed me to be worshipped symbolized the coming of my guru. 

I took up Agathiyar's call and scouted around to know further about their worship but eventually settle to carry out the worship in my home using whatever little references I had collected then. If Agathiyar came as said as my Moola Guru, the following year I meet Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai in a strange encounter. The Swami who was also an astrologer surprised me by giving me a mantra initiation and taking me as a student after just 5 hours in his company.

When Supramania Swami requested that we help with the finances to build a temple for Lord Murugan, we went ahead to fulfill his 40-year desire. But before we could see the structure come up a stranger Siddha came along and questioned him why he was going back into bakti when he was already in Gnanam. Swami took it as the divine's word of disapproval and abandoned his venture. Before he left his mortal body to my surprise he passed on the merits of his tapas and tavam to me. I guess this gift of his catapulted me. I believe he is living in me wanting to see me progress further.

When Tavayogi told me to carry out the homam in my home, initially I voiced my fear telling him that it was something carried out by the priestly class. But Tavayogi erased the fear in me. Later Agathiyar tells me that it was not done for my personal gains but for the good of the Prapanjam. I carried on doing it with love.  

When Tavayogi came later and showed us Yoga asanas and Pranayama in 2008, I began doing them immediately. I did not even ask to know the names of the postures and techniques. It was not important to me. By doing it I got connected with my breath. I had taken my very first step in going within. Guiding me through his Nadi beginning in 2002, Agathiyar had me settle the scores with my past karma, brought me to the worship of the Siddhas, and showed me my gurus in physical forms, who taught me rituals and Yoga helping me polish what little I had previously picked up from books in the eighties. He used to come through the Nadi and guide me on Yoga at times weekly.

Mahakavi Bharathi wrote in one of his poems "Ninnai Charan Adainthen Kannama" that he began to see results only when he took up God's will. When he tried as much as he could to push through his will it always ended up in anguish and failure. I was made aware of the changes and progress within me after Agathiyar acknowledged them in the Nadi and these days in coming through his devotees. Listening to him paid off. Similarly, I never questioned Tavayogi too but followed whatever he said. Listening to the Gurus paid off. My effort was minimal but their grace was the driving force behind it. G.Vanmikanathan describes Ramalinga Adigal's final moment of union with the Lord in his PATHWAY TO GOD TROD BY SAINT RAMALINGAR, Bharatiya Vidya Bhavan, Bombay. "Our Swaamikal is now ready for the highest of all possible acts of grace, the crowning glory of the long years of thavam. The conferment of the Effulgence of Grace." 

Swami Saravanananda in his English rendering of the original in Tamil of Ramalinga  Adigal's "Arutperunjhoti  Agaval", published by the  Ramalinga  Mission, Madras wrote of the various boons conferred on  Ramalingam:  Zeal or great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or an objective, discernment or the ability to judge well, radiant body, prosperity, liberated from countless births, freed from religious bigotry, removed doubt and misconception, freed from the clutches of religious scriptures, and made him pure. After having gained all the Siddhis and attained the highest possible state, a man of such stature, Ramalinga Adigal chose to stay away from the limelight but the Lord acts otherwise. Vanmikanthan writes,

"The Swaamikal was modesty incarnate. He did not like the limelight before which he was exposed to the world. He (God) spoke to Raamalinga Swaamikal who was the chosen Son of God in the nineteenth century to establish a universal brotherhood of man freed of all shackling fetters of castes and creeds, of rich and poor, of black or white, a universal brotherhood born of a sense of oneness in the eyes of God and based on compassion, on compassion alone. The Son of Man has become the Son of God, and he who was unknown and who did not want to be known was dragged much against his will to discharge his preordained mission on earth, to commence his ministry on earth, in order to establish the Pure Universal True Path to God, a path, a religion, based on compassion towards all creatures on earth, a religion based on intense and one-pointed love of God, a religion freed from the stifling influences of caste, country, race, language, conflicting creeds, petty cruel gods and inhuman sacrifices, freed from the dialectics of learned scriptures."

Soon going within one learns to listen to the inner voice. The Jeevatma, not satisfied in only knowing but in wanting to experience things separates from its parent the Paramatma bringing together the 5 elements and further tattvas to create a physical body and another 4 bodies in various stages of subtlety as vehicles. Soon it goes into hiding behind several curtains placed by the Paramatma. A play then begins. His Lila begins. The ego in us that emerges with this knowing and knowledge goes about fulfilling its desires adding on to them, and runs behind the pleasures that are apparent, ignorant of its true self in hiding. It takes a beating in life or the grace of the guru to bring him out of this ignorance that all things are permanent and everlasting. Coming to know the impermanence of life he heads out to seek true and lasting bliss. Having failed in his search outside he turns his sight within or is shown an insight of his oneness with the Divine residing in the deep reaches of the cave within him. Lord Kuga who resides in this cave comes in the form he desires to redeem his Atma. The salvation of the Atma is arrived at. The merger takes place. The marriage is concluded. Bliss prevails. 

MAYA

When Ramalinga Adigal on charting out the many levels of the soul's journey and its spiritual experiences says that there are still higher stages that he hesitates to express I gather that the world around us shall look different to each person standing on a different level of experience, understanding and acceptance. Someone might settle for a particular understanding since he has had experience only until that stage. He would not comprehend what is beyond or above him or for that matter things subtler than what is visible to his eyes. A scientist sees more than what we see with the instruments at his disposal. An astronaut sees things that we never saw unless he shares them with us. Experience indeed maketh a man. And no two experiences shall be the same. This is true of miracles too. Some might see it while it is veiled from others. Some might choose to believe it while others might call it a hoax.

As we gain newer experiences and learnings, there is a need to revisit our earlier understanding from a different point of view or perspective. We shall surprise ourselves how life which is in constant change demands a constant need for re-evaluation of understanding as we take each step. In asking me what was happiness எது மகிழ்ச்சி என்று நீ கூறுகிறாய் Agathiyar drove the point home that whatever keeps changing is not real. நிலையற்றதே மகிழ்ச்சி. Indeed joy is prompt to change, changing to sadness the very next moment. Or the joy of owning something intensifies the moment we grab onto something larger and better. This applies to experience too. It is similar with learning too. It is as if the moment we think we have understood something another portal opens up as we dwell deeper into the subject or another object appears in the murky waters as we wade through it further in. It looks like there are no concrete answers to life's mysteries. Life simply mystifies us and baffles us at every step. We are told in the documentary "Samadhi" that all levels within the field of change are Maya. So here we have it. We are indeed living in Maya. Everything seems like a dream. It is like a flowing river. 

If whatever is subjected to change is Maya, now we tend to ask the question "What is that that never changes?" As Agathiyar says true bliss and happiness are in finding that which never changes, this is what we have to look for. He says that what we are in search of has no form, name or tattvas. Though he points us to it, it is still a mystery.  நீ தேடி செல்லும் ஒன்றுக்கு வடிவம் இருப்பதில்லை, நாமம் இருப்பதில்லை, தத்துவங்கள் இருப்பதில்லை. We arrive at the source then. From it evolved everything else that is prone to changes. 

Where was the embryo or pindam that was me? Where is the toddler that was me? Where is the teen that was me? What we have are photos and some memory. We need another to fill us in about ourselves at that age. Our memory too fails us eventually. Our eyesight, hearing, our limbs, and internal organs all shall fail us someday. We are changing every moment too. What is that in us that never changes? Even death is not permanent. Death is another doorway to another journey says Agathiyar. மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு. From www.lionsroar.com we read that "In Buddhism generally, death isn’t death - it’s a staging area for further life." Time too doesn't stand still. "As soon as it occurs, it immediately falls into the past." "All conditioned things have the nature of vanishing,” the Buddha said. All conditioned things pass away. Nothing remains as it was. The body changes and weakens as it ages. In response to this, and to a lifetime’s experience, the mind changes as well. The way one thinks of, views, and feels about life and the world is different. Even the same thoughts one had in youth or midlife take on a different flavor when held in older age." (Source: www.lionsroar.com)

Agathiyar too has taken many forms according to our state of spiritual maturity and acceptance. In revealing himself, Agathiyar came as the words in the Nadi in 2002. Then he came with form and name as a painting. Then he came as a granite stone at Agasthiyampalli and Papanasam during my tour of India with Tavayogi in 2005, and a bronze statue at AVM in 2010. Tavayogi says  Agathiyar is the Vaasi or Breath during my third initiation from him at Kallar Ashram in 2005 and in asking us to observe it, brought us to step out of Sariyai and Kriyai into Yoga in 2008. Tavayogi tells us that Siva and Agathiyar are one when my family and I follow him to Nattadreeswar temple in Erode in 2013. Upon returning from our pilgrimage to India in 2016, the deity Aiya surprises us by revealing to us that Agathiyar was of the female gender, the lady whom we met and greeted at numerous spots on the pilgrimage. Then Agathiyar comes to us and says he is the sensation or Unarvu that we feel at certain times, during puja, and in doing charity. He later declares that he takes the form of vibration or Athirvu as in going within. To those who have worked their way up and are able to accept that he is beyond name and form, Agathiyar comes within as the Magnetic wave or Kaanta Alai. Tavayogi told me that Agathiyar had come to him as Jothi giving him this darshan in the Kallar hills just above his old ashram when I meet him at his Ashram in 2005. Agathiyar is Jothi. Dhanvantri came after Tavayogi went into samadhi in 2018 telling us he at attained Jothi too.

Following the manifestations of Agathiyar, it looks like he too has gone through numerous changes to adapt to our understanding. So is the worship of deities and Siddhas enveloped in Maya too? As this question arose in me it sent shivers down my back. I realized that we now stood at the threshold of Bhagavan Ramana's teachings - enquiry into the source of his being. So I go to Sri Ramanasramam at https://www.sriramanamaharshi.org/teachings/. Ramana greets me with the following quote of his. "Keep turning your attention within. One day the wheel of thought will slow down and an intuition will mysteriously arise. Follow that intuition, let your thinking stop, and it will eventually lead you to the goal." Then the realization dawned on me that this was exactly what Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal have been pushing us to do. 

SHARING

If I wrote that I was an introvert, one might ask why I had shared my Nadi readings that I consider very personal. The reason is as there were adverse opinions about the Nadi and condemnation of it back then. I thought I should come to the aid of the Siddhas in backing their Nadi. I am not a Nadi reader, neither do I possess one. I too like others had my reading done by professional Nadi readers from India who come by to Malaysia. I was fortunate to have my first Nadi that spoke about my past, present, and future journey read by Thiru Senthilkumar of Avinashi once. The rest of the Nadi readings came by way of Thiru T.Ramesh. I received a few messages read by Thiru Tamaraiselvan that appeared in the Nadi reading of friends. Tavayogi and Mataji too have read the Nadi for us. The late Amarar Taranibalan has read too. As these Nadi readings worked for me I had to come up with some sort of damage control measures to save the Siddhas and their medium of communication the Nadi because I love the Siddhas. They had always been with me. I had to come to their defense.

If at all what was said in the Nadi did not materialize, I told myself that I had only myself to blame. I reasoned that I had not put in sufficient effort or did not start the venture on time as told. In short, I did not listen to their words, hence it did not take place. Another reason could be that Agathiyar might be bargaining with Lord Brahma to make it happen. But if Lord Brahma refuses to move what can Agathiyar do? Many have shown their disappointment at Agathiyar for failing them after they come to him for blessings on their new purchases, businesses, their new ventures, marriage proposals, partners, etc. But they come to him only after they had visited these and shown some interest, made deals, or given their heart. The most compassionate father shall bless and send them off. When things go wrong they confront Agathiyar. It wasn't Agathiyar's will but our own will that was in play. Siddha and poet Mahakavi Bharathi says it beautifully in this verse of his song "Ninnai Charan Adainthen, Kannama." தன்செய லெண்ணித் தவிப்பது தீர்ந்திங்கு நின்செயல் செய்து நிறைவு பெறும்வண்ணம். Doing his heart's desire, and getting agitated that his endeavors kept failing, Bharathi surrendered to the Almighty and did Her asking instead, hence gaining utmost satisfaction and regaining his peace. If we fail to do God's will but go after our own desires, thoughts, and likings, then of course we have to accept failures and disappointments. At times a failure could be a blessing or a relief from something more disastrous. He could have saved us from a bigger tragedy or bigger losses. 

Though I had shared my Nadi readings of those portions where I thought readers could benefit and follow if they wished to such as on puja, I had kept other portions regarding the changes taking place within away from the public eye for I thought they were personal and might vary from person to person. We don't want others to have an expectation right? Tavayogi too might not approve of me sharing them for he never shared his experiences in public though he spoke about the Siddhas and their teachings to them at large. But recently Agathiyar wanted me to share my experiences in going within. Hence I began to post the readings from day one wherever there was mention of internal changes taking place for it is a long process and doesn't happen overnight or come on as a blast. It is a gradual process taking into consideration the mental and physical preparedness of the sadhaka or aspirant to avoid disastrous results. Most of the time I did not see the said changes happening. I might not have been paying attention or aware or it might be happening subtly. It could also be that it was a forecast. Or I might not be placing sufficient effort to warrant it to happen. I took all this in my stride, never upset that it did not happen or becoming frustrated. I never researched what was said or dwelt on it for long. I took their word as the Bible and followed whatever was told. I guess the Siddhas were happy as they continued guiding me through these Nadi until they began to come through devotees and speak to us. 

Hence everything fell into place well. Today I understand what was told or described back then as experience and maturity in the field have taught us much. Since my gurus and the Siddhas have left something behind, I guess I can only leave this blog and the postings, the writings, and teachings of Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, the Siddhas, Supramania Swami, and Tavayogi behind for someone out there to gain insight or further understanding. That is service to both mankind and guru I guess.